2350968's blog: "Old works"

Into this world we all are born Born and raised at the speed of light Bright entitities of the universe Embers of the vast twilight We live but for a century A speck of sand in the timeline Of the universe that stretches wide Into the realm of eternity Man is born in equality Then made into a souless drone Made to live for all his years In a blissful restless slavery The Earth spins around the Sun In a perpetual motion never to cease People live in a cycle Until the sprocket's time is done Open Your Eyes my young child Your life is now beginning to spin You are on the road to where we all go To a paradise that precedes our demise

I lay here as my strength whispers away from me The powers that puzzle my mind are now in play My body is the dying star in the sky above Mind over matter diminishes and my body wastes away Now in my time of dying is my time to unravel The pandora's box in the back of my mind So those sitting right by my side Listen in and hear my words with which you must bind Life is but a fleeting dream Alpha and Omega beyond the realm of infinity Think and act in the time you are alive In the end, the dream will amount to a blissful abbreviated infinity Into this world we all are born With our minds open and our eyes closed Life is the race we have against the fabric of time Never to win, as we all bow down to it and slowly die Go beyond the pre-rendered game that is made Open Your Eyes before you open your mind We all must walk before we can run Now it is time to reflect back in a flash of light And complaintly close my tired, heavy eyes

Up in the sky the light dimmed As storm clouds were born out of the bad mood I tried to speak but I had nothing to say Today just wasnt one of my days The words always come out of my mouth With no hesitation about the msiconceptions that may come about Today just wasnt one of those days My mind is frantic with thought But the thoughts wont come out of my mouth Is it insecurity The fear of individuality I am who I am But not anymore Today was the day I lost myself To the perilous gloom of the sick sad world surrounding me Filled with mechanical forms of expression And drones to serve the bidding of their synthetic king Where did all the freedom go to? It went to the back of my mind Where the words are trapped By the confusion of a million trapped thoughts That never got the chance to extract themselves From the fear that lies deep within

They lurk in the night Not to be seen by those with eyes that are unkeen They walk in they day as we wander alone Below us at times and above and beyond Your fear stands over you Like a shadow of the tower of babel You use this fear to climb very high High above the white light that you refuse to look to The shadows follow your every move And you embrace the deadly darkness It floods your eyes and then your mind Clouding your life and eating away at the time The time you gave up For the love of death and leaving it all behind Swim in the bottomless void Eliminate the white light That still stirs in your subconscious Drown deeper and deeper until there is no more The light will assimilate with the nothingness Life ceases to be You are now the walking dead Never to feel or know or have anymore say

Just because you have been there Doesn't mean you feel the same way I do We are the best of friends on separate paths And in the end we will find our dreams alone

Oh no, what is going on!? I slept 16 hrs once again This seems to be a trend I cannot break Losing every day of my young life The thing is, I dont feel my age Time has no form of concrete measurement to go by As my eyes are as sleepy as my lethargic mind And I dont feel much like trying The best years of my life feel left behind At the tender age of 21 I feel more like an aging old man Than a young man with his entire life ahead I wonder what happened to me From the day I turned 18 To the meaningless day I was old enough To purchase my own drunkenness Was it knowing I had to grow into a man And at the thought, I felt ashamed For when I was in my teenage years I did not know life for I was shelled in my fears The best years of my life were put aside Because insecurity and anger subsided I am physically the age of 21 Though in my mind, I am ready for retirement I'm 21 going on 52 Which to some may seem like I am giving in There are some who would agree With the feelings pouring out of me Maybe this is not my first life Or maybe this is my mental suicide In either case, I miss those years And in my nostalgia, I live them vicariously through my tears

Days continue to pass me by As I sleep the hours away In any bed I can find And the pattern doesnt cease I wake up and I feel like weaping For another day has passed me by I feel that sleep is a waste of life My body may be weak But it can still stand the test of time No matter how broken my body feels Or brittle my mind may be I wish sleep would wait until I die There is a whole life ahead of me But in the days I lose to sleep It feels as if I skipped a century While all my friends and family sleep I am awake and alone with only thoughts And then back to sleep I go While the world wakes up outside I feel that sleep is a waste of life My body may be weak But it can still stand the test of time No matter how broken my body feels Or brittle my mind may be I wish sleep would wait until I die Dreams may be good for what we cannot have My desire is my life within my grasp And even if I won't see it all With my eyes open I will get what I can Days continue to pass me by As I sleep the hours away In any bed I can find I hope I wake up to see the world is alive

It will take more than a shaman To find meanings in a thing so vague These premonitions perpetuated through fatalism I only consider self-esteem to be a fallacy My state of mind rooted in the subconscious Is watered through thoughts unwanted Through photosynthesis, I inherit a mental disease The one thing on which to feed, the essential poison My brain eats itself And through secretion, my dreams can yell! It has become a habit To inhabit the thoughts of others A healthy meal to ponder Though still starving as I wander Everywhere I tread is like quicksand As confidence sinks lower Still no feeble minds to feed upon Hunter becoming hunted, as others like me tread near With only the option to feed upon myself I indulge in my withering soul The will to live is built on good foundation Though my will to die stems from vanity's tempation

Taking a chance on your life Gambling with your soul Which you would gladly sell To the cause they sold you Telling you your life is in your land And to win You must fight with the strength of your very own hands Your life is what you make of it And that is all on you You once had a dream To grow up and make life big Now you have the goal To stay home and live small You dont know what growth is They told you you dont need it Life is here and now And you dont ask them how You just sit idly by and follow the leader Into the tomorrow you are told will never come Where did it all go? At one time you did know The things you wanted to be And how you wanted to get them That is all gone now Nothing matters All that your have is your land The land that every man has So why do you fight When it is not yours But everyone's piece Stop waging wars Over what is not just yours