1409800's blog: "My Vents/Rants"

Okay here's how I'm feeling. I'm 32 and I think I'm approaching the Menopause. I feel like shit on a daily basis and it sucks. 

I'm not gonna blast anyone via this but if You feel the pain I feel then pretty much You know who You are.

I live in England BUT I'd rather just upsticks and move but I CAN'T.

I have had several Fubar relationships that ended and I feel like all of em were My fault. 

I get pretty full on and attached too easy.

My heart just wants to love and all I wanna be is loved,

FOR ME. NOT FOR WHAT I HAVE BETWEEN MY LEGS OR UNDER MY SHIRT.

This world is so fucked up and FULL of shallow selfish people and I regret bringing a child into this place We call Earth.

I'm being honest and open. I'm sick of feeling like this and I DON'T want to be alone on Fu.

Being Alone is the worst feeling ever.

So I need time to heal and make myself who and what I was before the Impy brain bomb went off !!!!!

Okay so 3 days ago I had an episode in front of my 7 year old daughter.

My Depression has gotten pretty fuckin dire lately

I'm suffering from alot of stress cuz of this.

My  Bi polar has become unbearable and I have no clue what to do.

I'm feeling like I need help, but the help I need will require medication.

Currently I'm self medicating with Pot just to cope with all of this.

My Daughter knows I'm sick  and I will have to eventually have to tell  Viking.

I'm blogging this cuz I'm lost epicaly and I don't know where to start with getting better.

This whole Hysterectomy thing is weighing on my mind and my body desperately wants another child.

I know that it's more than likely my fault I cannot have another child and it's killed a small part of Me,

People say oh get over it, I simply just can't.

No one knows what's happened other than my little Girl and She's trying to help Me keep happy.

I don't know if She knows or has the slightest clue on how Her Mummy is. But She's a smart kid.

My hair is suffering again because of all of this. It's just started to fall out all over again.

I don't know who to turn to right now. So  this is my main outlet.

If You read this please let Me know

Thanks

Tyressa <3

I want the old Zombie Massacre back where everyone got along and didn't care about gettin some !!!!

I miss the Old crowd. The new breed of Zombie kinda sucks !!!!

Sorry real talk. Some people make Me laugh intensely and fuck GROW UP !!!!

It's not High School or a Personal pissing up the wall contest.