lila's blog: "my poetry"

I am on an emotional high So please don't tell me goodbye You are so sweet This is so neat I hope you feel the same way I'll ask you some day But for now I'll just see how things go

sometimes i wonder is there really someone for me?? or am i doomed to live a lonely life i want someone special to sweep me off my feet someone who really cares who wont just use me or pretend to like me ive had a few jerks but i havent given up there are good guys out there and i am going to find me one a guy who will love me and support me no matter what i chose to do so dont worry about me im still looking and maybe one day ill find that special someone and fall madly in love but i hope it happens soon cause i really want a guy to love me and cherish me who i can love and cherish in return

I am so lonely. I wish you were here. But you don't know me. And I dont know you. Or if we do know each other, We dont know we are meant to be together I long to feel your arms around me. I wish I knew you were there for me. I wish you would always be there whenever I needed you. Be there for me throughjoy and sorrow. I am so lonely. Will you come fill the void in my heart? I need you to make me whole. Without you I am a shell I am so lonely.

My spirit is free I fly born on the winds back My troubles stream behind me Unable to catch me When I fly with the wind I am safe When I fly with the wind I am carefree Nothing can harm me Everything is right When my spirit is free

Wonderful and mysterious Complicated and twisted Hard and strange Full of trials and joys Never ending Always beginning Always multiplying Never dividing Always Present Always renewing

Are you happy?? You've made me cry I swore no one would make me cry Ever again Yet somehow you made me cry You have hurt me more deeply than you will ever know Instead of trying to work things out You insist on taking revenge I didn't do it to hurt you But yet you are doing your best to hurt me I sit all alone and think about you Think about what has happened and how things could be different I am growing up I am learning some hard lessons in the process I realize now that you never really know what people are like Or how they will treat you I thought that I was more important to you than your pride Just because I am not what you wanted me to be Does not mean that I am not your daughter Do you not love me because I dissapointed you? Do you still care about me at all? Or am I just a chapter in your book that has ended? I am an adult now Whether you like it or not Whether you acknowledge it or not All I want from you is the love and respect that I deserve I work hard all the time to make you proud I keep my grades up And I always work to better myself I got a job I am saving money I try to make you proud I refuse to be treated like a child I refuse to be put on a guilt trip I refuse to let you manipulate me I refuse to be a puppet And I refuse to be an instrument of spite I am my own person I have my own hopes and dreams I will live my life the way I want And I will not be ordered about by anyone

The choices we make determine our future The choices we make reflect who we are deep down inside Sometimes we cannont see The consequences of our actions Every action has a reaction Every action causes good things as well as bad Every choice we make creates change Every change is hard to handle What if?? What if we never voiced an opinion? What if we never made a decision? What if we always let someone else run our life? We would never have to take responsibility for our actions We could always blame everything bad on someone else But could we call that living Or merely existing? How do we handle the pain brought about by our choices? How do we know what to do??

Why? A single word. How can a single word Reflect so much anguish? Why did you do this to us? How could you desert us? Why? What did we do? Why won't you come back? Why? Why? ANSWER ME! But you won't, I know you won't. You left us. All I ask is why? Why?

Winter is coming, Winter is fast approaching. Cold winds are blowing, Look its snowing. Days are short, With little time to consort. Nights are long, And filled with song. Icy roads, Sleighs with loads. People bundled up, With tea in many a cup. Every thing is crystal clear, Winter is near!

It is time to begin again The slate has been wiped clean Past mistakes are forgiven Your life is in you hands Make of it what you will Be unique and individual Don't follow the crowd Or let other's expectations define you Follow your heart And let your life be full of woderful experiences Your life starts now If you follow your heart and your dreams Be smart and think You will be amazed at all life has In store for you Go now and live up to your great potential