SweetItsChris's blog: "My Message"

I need a man who doesn't mind that I play video games. I need a man who loves me no matter what. No matter if I smell because I didn't feel like taking a shower today and then I cleaned the whole house. Or that I took a shower and smell like lilacs and vanilla. I need a man who loves and Worships God with all his heart and wants to be a godly man. I need a man who wants kids, doesn't have a numbe rin mind just wants children with the woman He loves. I need a man who loves music and gets why I love it so much myself. I need a man who loves movies, watches stupid tv shows, loves to cuddle, doesn't need sex 24/7 but is sexually attracted to me still. I need a man who understands that I was sexually abused growing up and I won't be intimate all the time, That I'll have insecurities and flashbacks and things will awakedn that hurt in me in a relationship. I need a man who is tender but won't take my bullshit either. I need him to stand up for me when others are wrong and correct me when I am. I need a man to hug me when i'm crying and in pain and playfully push me when i'm being a jerkface. I need a guy who kisses me when I wake up with horrible breath and when I just brushed my teeth and am minty fresh. A man whos big enough to say I love you, more than he needs too but one that understands I've never been in a relationship so I will probably be independent alot of the time. A man that shows up while we are together and just randomly takes me on a trip for no reason. I need a man, that respects that I just don't want to have sex until I'm happily in love and married. That I respect myself and know that God has someone out there for me so I don't have to sleep with every weirdo that comes along. One that actually takes the time to get to know me and realizes that I'm horrible at keeping up a conversation if he doesn't. A guy that sees I'm smart in more ways than one, that I have ideas and dreams and that I would love fo rhim to be a part of. But that also has his own dreams and I will support him on them. A guy, that has a past but knows that I will not, hold it against him. I will fall for him no matter what he's done. That God loves him also even if he's messed up. He doesn't take himself too seriously and he's willing to make changes if needed. Someone who loves me unconditionally because that's how I will love him.