You Did WHAT With A Monkey's blog: "My Ignorant Poetry..."

Days and nights roll by - Fast paced hymens, a lullaby. Weekend rendezvous - a lasting impression Emotional secrets kept; no time for indiscretion. My face can hide my thoughts, But my eyes will never lie. Another tight-lipped hypocrisy. Reality ignored, I press on. I'll enjoy my days, sing my song. Eventhough it's never fair - A silent tongue brings no dispar.

I remember the day it happened - The day you came into my life. The second I saw you Everything in my world changed. I loved you before I even knew you. I cannot put into words all thoes feelings I felt But I know I was proud, I was scared I was happy, most of all I was blessed. I was now a mother. You have brought out the best in me You taught me how to be real You teach me every day patience I learned unconditional love. You are my mini-me My shadow, my friend. You are my angel. < I LOVE YOU BRAYDEN >

Thousands and thousands They all go one by one, You wish it would all end, Except, its just begun. They walk a lonely strip of land With their life and gun in hand. He sends more troops to cover up The ones who are now gone. While President Bush sits on his ass, Fishing all day long. What’s this? It’s crazy can’t you see? They’re fighting for our country But all the men will bleed. As a single drop of blood falls to the ground, That’s one more man of many, That never will be found. **This is actually the very first poem I ever wrote, which was over 15 years ago. I was sitting in my Civics class in Junior High School watching the Gulf War on TV. Bush SR. was the president, and ironically enough I feel the same way about his son.

Thorns from my black rose of life prick my flesh Slowly I’m bleeding out my sanity. The darkness has engulfed me I’m still searching for the light I’m leading myself into nothingness I’m alone in my world of confusion. Only sticks and stones, no cure. In my corner I sit begging for an answer Lasting impressions and memories Where did they go? Where is the person I once was? I was lead to temptation Now there’s no escape. I’ve quickly slipped under. Just one more fix, and I’ll be done Forgetting you, my son, and everyone Another night of repetition When will this end? I need to bleed my veins I need to save myself. I’m weak.

I’ve slipped into an obscure reality This mortality plagues me. Self-manipulation A Catastrophe - What have I become? Where’s my compass when I need one? My vision’s blurred again The voices in my head scream Is there silence? I’m still alone in the dark No footsteps in the snow No white knight to save me No compassion for the inferior This quicksand suction of life; It pulls me down.

My tranquility is lost Your voice in my head Tormenting me My scars appear from the inside out- Come closer, I’m salivating……. Let me spit on you again.

You’ve become my friend. You cleansed my memory, Erased my past & made me forget. Finally for that moment I was free. You saved me again. An ever-lasting impression - Chemical compassion.

When you touch me You melt into my flesh Your soul intertwines with mine. Like fine wine on my lips, I taste you. You open me up to things I can remember. Every time I loose control You revive me.

I turned and walked away from you I can’t let you see me like this Only alone can I be myself. No fear, no morals. Hate and confusion consume me Compassion and love escape me ~No longer in control~ You cant save me anymore. I questioned where did I go wrong? And how did this happen? I no longer care why. My tears are dry, my heart stone cold Somewhere I lost myself

I’m not asking for the world I’m not asking for things to change I’m only asking for one more time. Lay with me, hold me, love me for the night. I can’t remember what its like to feel wanted Teach me again even if it’s a fallacy. Tell me everything will be all right. Reach out and caress my face. Look into my eyes, & lie to me Make me feel like a woman again. Tomorrow will be a new day.