METALHEADVIKING THE FREE's blog: "metalhead4ever's thoughts"

steps forward , 1 by 1 to the door pushes it open and steps out quietly closes it behind myself steps down

the walk and looks forward walking step by step into the future knowing there's no way to get back !

leaving everything behind all the pain , anger , dismay's and the nothing that i thought i would be (useless)

, it would apear that i don't have the charm anymore , thats no big deal , it never was , the only thing

is pos,for now that it will help me to help others with out asking for anything , the way it goes , some

peeps call it pay it forward , i don't agree , if someone doesn't start the ball rolling so to speak , then

how would it work with out someone thinking in a positive manner then put that into motion (pos,for) 

the whole thing is , about just getting it done ! as i am walking into the future , who know's if i'll find

what i am looing for , right now , i myself don't even really know , anyways , j,s but i feel like i am

becoming more invisible day by day , lol oh well , these are just some of my thoughts , pls don't let

them get you down i just needed to get them out , peace all , THE VIKING MH4E !!!

what love means to me ,,, it means when you fall in love with someone , that's the easy part 

it when you break up , the hard part is getting past the feeling of a broken heart , will you 

recover ? can you recover ? , if you recover , will you be the same ? or a better you , to me

love is understanding ,caring , communication no matter how bad the topic it's a ultimate 

feeling when you are in love with someone that feels exactly how you feel , it shouldn't be 

well you decide , or i am in charge because it almost never works people , trust is one of those

things , honestly is another . i don't know how it all works , but i do like that feeling knowing 

that being in love with someone i can say is my squeeze , like wise for her , how ever at the

moment i do not have anyone i can call that , i may never the female person i am searching for 

i like lots of peeps , but if i ask you for friendship , pls do not stab me in the back , i can be

a very cool guy to the people i like the most , i will be nice to everyone else until i get screw'd 

then all bets are off ! , getting back to love , i've only been in real full feeling love up to now 

maybe 3 times so , what love means to me is when you or the other person puts into it as much

as you do (equility) ! not accusing the other about doing stuff (without any proof) i do have a huge

heart to give out in different ways , i don't give trust easily , but i can will party with anyone , but

i also don't use the word love loosly , if i say ( i love you) it's because i mean it , not using because 

it is there , i could say , i love how you look , ( i love my metal) it's in the name !! i don't ask for

much , anyway these are my thoughts my peeps , MH4E CHEERS OOOOOOWAAAAHHHH!!!

Im not one to give advice , but girl your in trouble and you better 

think twice , now holding out your hands with diamonds on your rings

is it love of money that makes you do these things , i sing na na na na na na

im on to you na na na na na na ,i wont be your fool cant you see how hard i try

to keep you satisfied na na na na na na 

You can play with your money ,but you can't play with love the company 

you keep , you put yourself about ,what i want to know is , what you want with me 

you got my attention but not my sympathy i sing , na na na na na na 

im on to you , na na na na na na , oh, i wont be your fool 

i dont wanna hear your lies being victimized na na na na na na 

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ,i said na na na na na na , im on to you 

na na na na na na ,i wont be your fool cant you see how hard i try

 to keep you satisfied na na na na na na , stand back it wont be 

love were fighting for if you close the door !! , i dont wanna hear

your lies on being victimized , na na na na na na , you can play

with your money , you cant play with love , the company you keep

you put your self about , what i want to know is , what you want with me 

you got my attention but not my sympathy i sing , na na na na na na, 

na na na na na na, na na na na na na, na na na na na na, na na na na na na,

im on to you , and never gonna be your fool , na na na na na na,, im on to you ,

writen by hurricane , 

oohh it must be magic inside your eyes i see my destiny 

every time we kiss i feel you breath your love deep inside of me 

if the moon and stars should fall , they'd be easy to replace .

i would lift you up to heaven so you would take their place

then i saw red , when i opened the door , i saw red, my heart

just spilled onto the floor, and i didn't need to see his face,

 i saw yours , i saw red when i closed the door, i dont think

im gonna love you anymore .

everyday i wake up i thank god that your still a part of me 

we've opened the door that so many people never find the key

and if the sun should ever fail to send it light , we'll burn a 1000

candles and make everything alright ,

then i saw red , when i opened the door , i saw red, my heart

just spilled onto the floor, and i didn't need to see his face,

 i saw yours , i saw red when i closed the door, i dont think

im gonna love you anymorrrrrrrrre .

i've been hurt and i've been blind , im not sure that i'll be fine 

i never thought it would end this wayyyyyyyyyyyy .

i saw red , when i opened the door , i saw red then my

heart just spilled onto the floor and i didn't need to see

his face oh , i saw yours , i saw red when i closed the doo

r , i dont think im gonna love you anymore ,

oooh it must be magic .

hey all , this is a real take from my past , (MH4E) , 

warrents , music and lyrics , , cheers all!!!

once apon a time there was this young VIKING MH4E the good times and fun / love would never end but then all the sudden it was like something reached in and ripped out my heart , i dont think he ever recovered from it , moving on , life got extremely hard for him as he moved on in life no gf's to talk to , or hug when they were needed , the whole world that he knew was gone and would never come bk , as for his heart , he didn't really need it anymore , as now he became very cold inside and didn't care who what or how anyone else hurt as long as it wasn't him anymore , but that would not be the last time in his life as he knew it , there would not be any love or gf's for him but 1 day it kind of changed when someone found him , but even now that over and done , he is still not sure where the future id going but he is pretty sure no love will be there waiting for him , there's a line in a song that almost tells how he feels , ( its not worth the pain that you feel) and the L word isn't to be used as something you describe things with , there's only 1 real meaning for it , but it doesn't have that greatness to him anymore , he feels responsible for it ever happening back when he was younger he can't but help to feel like there's not going to be any in his forseeable future and he blames him self for it , he doesn't know why that is , and may never understand it , but thats how it goes all he has now is the metal tunes that he can't live without or knowing he will find more new ones to listen to , the only thing he knows for sure is , the metal never les him down !!! hence the name (THE VIKING METALHEAD4EVER) !! TO ALL THE READERS , I WILL FINISH THE GHOST STORY ,  but for now , the metal is all i have , cheers all , lets have a drink !!! MH4E 

so doug started snapping off pictures and stephanie started to video tape all over , jordan placed the audio recorder in the middle of the room , 

then they heard it again , geeeeeeeeeeeeet ouuuuuuuuuuut , they all looked at each other , everyone knew no one alive said it 9 doug's thinking 

who, how , where the hell did that come from ) there wasn't any electricity to the house , but the lights were flickering , just then the basement

door slammed open and yet again the brutal stench of death made them all vomit again , doug's says , i hope no one's hungry for dinner , jordan

just kind of looked at doug , stephanie cautiosly walked towards the basement door , video recording she stops at the top of the stairs looking donw

she see's 2 red glowing eyes staring back , then all 3 hear the growling , jordan brings the audio recorder closer to the door where stephanie is standing 

, jordan looks down and see's the red eyes as well doug's not moving and by the look on the other 2's faces uhhh uhhh , noooooooooo way,,jordan

pulls out a big metal cross and says be gone from widst you same , they all hear a deep growling laughter but there's still no way out stephanie pulls

out holy water and splashes some down the stairs , they all hear what sounds like wimpering and scurying away , but little did they know it , the

creature was only baiting them (setting a trap) , doug says screw this im out , puts down the camera and try's all the other doors to get out , but

to no avail he's wasn't going anywhere all 3 are looking down the stairs try to figure out whats next jordan says well why do we have a lunch seeing

how were going to be here a while they all agreed , went back to the living room and ate , just then the whole house started shaking , lights

 flickering the basement door slamming shut , and then doug says please pass me a beer or a dozen , jordan looked at him , stephanie laughed 

at him , ( THATS IT FOR NOW MY PEEPS ) MH4E  more to come , nudge , wink wink :)

"maybe they couldn't decide who'd get everything and just decided to leave it" , doug suggested. maybe admitted jordan"but that still 

wouldn't explain wht its still here. i mean how strange it is for a place that sat unprotected for 70 yrs to go undisturbed? thiefs would 

have cleaned this place out decades ago. i guess people in tarryville are above that sort of thing , said doug. both jordan and stephanie 

stared at doug like he was a idiot. im joking, he insisted ! it's probably just that no one knew this stuff was still here.they both nodded

noncommittally and started to take pic's i don't see anything , where's all the orbs? doug squacked. jordan smlied :they only appear on film.

jordan explained , i thought you knew that . yeah i do doug said , but i just want to see something .his older companions laughed at him ( doug)

and continued to take pictures around the room , doug quickly got bored and sat down on a very dusty old sofa , as he sat he heard a moan ,

doug look over at jordan and stephanie ti see if they had heard it , so cautiously he looks around , , its not coming from the other 2, hmmm 

he thinks , now where did that come from , then he heard it again , but lil louder this time , it was still kind of muffled though , doug asks hey ,

by chance did either of you hear that? they look at him like you on something? , then they all heard it ( GETTTTTTTT OUTTTTTTTTTT ) well that

changed everything  , all three jumped together in a huddle , ok wtf was that? doug says , turn on the voice recorder , jordan and stephani

both scramble for it , jordan finds it , and hits record , stephanie gets out the video cam and hits record as well then they all hear it again , but

this time its growling , the voice is all around them none of the three can figure out where it is exactly , so they get doug to take pictures in different

places around the room , and just then , a very strong wind blows through and the stench of dead made all 3 vomit ( so much for lunch) ! , well my peeps , thats it for now , i will add more , MH4E , happy reading !! :)

Doug pretented to ponderthis before he grinned and clapped his hands together. so are you guys ready ? 

doug asked them , infecting them with his giddiness. they ( jordan and steph) smiled and nodded, grabbed

their cameras and bags and followed him . doug practically run towards the old house . when he got to the

front door and impatiently for them to join him. "Cmon" he shouted" they aren't getting any deader!"

jordan and stephanie both laughed. doug's enthusiasm remind them of the way they hadacted when they had

first started and it made what was a standard trip for them into something special. they hurried their pace and 

joined him at the front door , how do we get in? asks doug . that depends, jordan answered. "have you tried

opening the door? doug looked at him doubtfully before he tried turning the doorknob . it was rusty and stubborn

but wasn't locked and the heavy door swung open. "that was easy" said doug are abnadoned houses usually left

open for anyone to get in ? almost never stephanie answered. but it doesn't hurt to try , jordan added. the two 

of them counldn't help smiling as they watched doug walk through the doorway. his moves were careful and hesitant

, as if the devil himself was hidding behind the door ready to attack. they, on the other hand, were much more

relaxed. by now they knew that their biggest danger was that they might step on a nail and require a tetanus shot . 

As they walked from the foyer into the mansion's living room, the first thung they saw was the dust floating in the

sunlight that shone through its large bay window. jordan and stephanie both took a picture of it. do orbs gravitate

towards light? asked doug. not really stephanie shrugged, but it is pretty ! thanks to the sunlight they saw that

room not only was still furnished, but was full of the type of antiques that people appeared on television to

brag about finding. places like this are always empty, and when they're not, all you find are things they couldn't

be bothered to take with them. stephanie agreed " this stuff is was to nice to be left behind" ,,,,,,,,,,,thats it for now my peeps next piece on sat,

MH4E  oooowahhh , cheers all ,,/ keep rocking as always :)  

A young couple out of university , stephanie and jordan had come togther when they had

discovered that they shared all the same obsessions. but both were dedicted to the scientific

 analysisof the supernatural to british science fiction shows of the 70's and figuring that few

people could ever be more compatable, they got married and settled in jordans hometown 

, where they commuted to the big city for they day jobs. stephanie worked for a research

firm and jordan amnaged one of new yorks biggest comic book stores ,despite the long

hours they spent at work, they still managed to find time to devote to their website, their

greatest passion every weekend they gathered up their equipment and found some new

place to explore and then carefully documented what they found on their website . when

they got doug's email message, they were thrilled to find someone in tarryville who understood

their zeal, and they happily invited him to join them. stephanie continued to read from her

note book . in fact his kids were so mad about moving to tarryville they actually plotted to kill him.

h"really" ? doug asked unaware that anything so macabre could actually could happen in tarryville. 

how old were they ? in their 20's and 30's answered stephanie . doug snorted,  why didn't they

just stay in new york then ? according to what stephanie found on the net wilburforce insisted 

that his family be with him where ever he went or he would disenherit anyone who left him . 

what a freak , blurts out jordan ."yeah" stphanie agreed , im surprized he lasted as long as he did. 

everyone lived here for 3 yearsbefore they finnally killed him. how'd they do it aksed doug ?

stephanie answered , i'm not sure , i checked everywhere i could and it appears that no one ever

found his boby. they managed to get rid of it somehow, which is why no one was ever charged for

the crime. did they get his money ? asked jordan actually they didn't, because they couldn't find his body 

they had to wait before they could declare him legally dead , durring that time, all his investments began 

to failand when they were finally able to start divvying everything up, there was nothing left to divvy .

all that was left was the house, which they tried to sell but no one would buy it , what happened to them

, ? asked doug,i don't know stepanie answered , they just left, i guess. the place has sat empty for close

to 70 yrs. it belongs to the city now, but they don't seem to have any plans for it . its a pity when you

think about it , this place would make a wonderful museum. ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, thats it for now my peeps , MH4E 

"is that the place " doug asked stephanie , indicating the large broken down estate

at the end of the road , he tried to sound cool and nonchalant, but it wasobvious

that he was excited , this was his "documentation mission" with stephanie and her hubs 

jordan , and he couldn't wait to get inside to look for ghosts. "thats it" stephnie nodded

wooster mansion, she grabbed her note book  from her backpack and read aloud from it 

"it was built around 1926 by a guy named wilburforce wooster , wilburforce , jordan 

interupted ? stephanie shrugged don't look at me , i didn't name him . parents can be cruel

though , huh ? . she let doug and jordan agree with her before she continued , so anyway

he built this place for his family after moving here from (ny) which apparently they weren't

to happy about . i dont blame them doug sympathized , i wouldn't be too happy if i had too 

from the big city most boring place on earth . doug had lived in tarryville for the last three yrs

now . his family moved there when he was 15 and considered meeting stpheanie and jordan the

remotely interesting thing to have happened to him in that time . strangely , given how small

the town was, his first encounter with them wasn't in person , but on the internet, long facinated

by the world of supernatural , he had spent an idle sunday searching for websites about ghosts

on his dads computer . purelyby chance , one of the first sites he came across was the one

run by stphanie and jordan . on it he found hundreds of photos taken in old abanded buildings , 

as well as better maintained historical sites . no matter the locale,each photo had one thing

in common , an orb  , one of the floating balls of light that many believe are the wondering

souls of the dead . doug had become excited when he had realized that the people who had

taken the pictures lived in the same town he did . many of the pic's, had been taken in

buildings he had walked past many times , and it thrilled him to learn that he had been

right all along when he suspected that they were haunted . as soon as he had finished every

page the site had to offer ,he sent the couple an email with his phone number in it and urged

them to call him the next time they went out to document a house . two days later he found

himself on the phone with stphanie , a charming woman who turned out to be only 6 yrs older

than he was . she invited him to come along with them for theit trip though the wooster mansion

and he eagerly accepted ! 

part 1 done , much more to go , me peeps happy reading , MH4E