RoseofSin's blog: "Memoirs of MillerRose"

"I could forgive you everything, but forgive you nothing at the same time." Love has many different types of stories. You can either love a person, and they will love you in return and you both end up together, or you never get that fairy tale ending. I blame a lot of Romance novels and fairy tales for giving girls the dream of finding their perfect someone, and that good always triumphs. It really isn't that way in some cases, and never in my life will I read my future children fairy tales...The thing is, love is indescribable, you know it's more then lust. It brings you pain and joy at the same time. So is it better to have loved then never to have loved at all? Think about that. -A

I'll take your hand one last time, as I look into your eyes and kiss you goodbye, my love. I will wish you well as I walk away. For tomorrow is now today, and today is our farewell. How can I just go on without you? That is the question I keep asking myself. but I know I must travel on to save us both. For the smile I knew has been gone forever now, and the one I love is disappearing inside you. I'm sorry we couldn't say forever, but I know you'll be better off without me. The tears we shed now are for the best, I promise to love you forever, and that you will always have my heart. So i'll look back just one more time, and remember all the memories, before I walk away from you forever. For tomorrow is now today, love. and this is our farewell. -A

The Real Thing Lyrics: Bo Bice Verse 1 every word I say I mean it every single day I feel it but sometimes when you talk its obvious you want to show it so don't blow it Chorus: tell me what we got tell me its alot tell me its the real thing tell me not to change and always be the same tell me that's a good thing, it's a good thing tell me not to lie tell me not to wait tell me that you want the same things as me tell me that it's fate, driving me insane tell me its the real thing that keeps me hanging on Verse 2 I can read the signs between us I feel it inside when you come nearer there's a stillness in the air like no one else is there and every moment stands in the moment, yeah Chorus: tell me what we got tell me its alot tell me its the real thing tell me not to change and always be the same tell me that's a good thing, it's a good thing tell me not to lie tell me not to wait tell me that you want the same things as me tell me that it's fate, driving me insane tell me its the real thing that keeps me hanging on Verse3 sometimes it hurts to watch you leave it feels like you take a part of me with you I never know how it'll be I guess its just a mystery or is it the real thing (that keeps me hangin' on) Chorus x2: tell me what we got tell me its alot tell me its the real thing tell me not to change and always be the same tell me that's a good thing, it's a good thing tell me not to lie tell me not to wait tell me that you want the same things as me tell me that it's fate driving me insane tell me its the real thing that keeps me hanging on

After this weekend, I have come to realize how much I have fallen for a guy. The problem is, the distance is killing our relationship, and with every day that passes he seems to think about being single more and more when he is not with me. I'm afraid, I may love him too much to let him go if the time comes...Sigh, I hate love, no matter what I can't seem to win at it. Perhaps I should contemplate becoming a nun, that way my heart belongs to God and supposedly he loves all of us in return. Nah, I couldn't do it...the vow of chastity would kill me after a while. -A

I just finished watching the movie, "Object of my Attraction" and after seeing it, I felt a sense of remorse for the Jennifer Aniston character. While watching the movie, I remembered a time when I fell for one of my best guyfriends. He and I were very close, but he turned out to be Gay as well. It pained me to see him everyday knowing he was the perfect man in everyway except in orientation. He used to tell me he loved me and hugged me all of the time. Hah, it's funny how a movie brought up all these memories and mixed emotions for me. I guess this movie teaches you to move on with life no matter how painful it might be... -A

If you know me well enough, you would know it takes a lot to get me upset. Well this past Friday my boyfriend called me, and told me that he got high on a Monday night and hooked up with some random chick. Then he tries to break up without giving me a chance to say anything. Yeah, I was sad, angry, and for some reason I still love him. How the hell does that work anyway? I never used to be able to forgive something like this, but loving him changed that. He promised me to stop, now I just hope he does so my heart won't break worse then it did last time. -A

There are times when a girl feels overwhelmed, and yes my dear friends it is one of those times. My mother is sick with cancer so i'm feeling a bit of the burden from all of the housework that is accumulating. Since my father is a jerk-off who chooses to ignore the situation, I am the one left to deal with it all. My father and I never got along, but these days it seems that I cannot even stand to be in the same room with him. Ah, what a vent..I feel much better now. Regards, -A