Turtled Nuts's blog: "right now"

You may see me smile, you may see me laugh, these are just masks for the public too hide the pain and hurt inside..

So much of it is my own doin and i feel broken more than i can show, am thankful for the people around me that try and help as i go,

this isnt a plea or a sympathy request, just the feelin deep in my chest, the numb, the cold, the heartbreak, but cant show that weakness too many as its just another thing that can used against me down the line, or even worse be used against me by own mind.

I am my own worst enemy, a fight i try and deal with everyday, i lose so many times, instead of helpin i break into more pieces, not want too be fixed by anyone, maybe just ear along the way, but dont want too bring people too my level of loneliness, instead i try make others happy first.

This may make no sense too some and other may realise their not the only ones who go through the torture of this alone, i'll do my best too help and guide so others dont have too go through what i am right now