Lou Eskie III's blog: "Lou Eskie III's Twisted Thoughts"

Sitting still as the world passes you by Is like being in a crowded room And noone bothers to say "Hi" It makes you realize just how useless you are With or without your exsistence The world continues along There's no change in the tune of life's usual song What would change if he wasn't here? Only the emptiness of this chair? Why was he around? What good could he do? What made him different from me or you? Is this all life had to offer? Or is he the only one feeling trapped in a coffin? He needed a break Someone to help him We all hear Yet noone listens We all look And see absolutely nothing He thought of this As he looked on the crowd below And knew they were waiting for the finale of this show The most attention he had ever received Happened the day he let himself fall 100 feet

She surveys the scene, Aware of everyone around her Noticing all movement Must be careful not to be seen Must be silent and appear not to hide anything Can't let anyone know what's about to happen Make sure not to leave any evidence at all She calmly walks by unsuspecting witesses Everyone seeing what's going on around them Noone truely aware of her She slips into the back room More comfortable now Less eyes on her Nervously slips by him as he opens the door for her She tries to act calm Cant let anyone even suspect her intentions Double checks the door to make sure its locked Must avoid all interruptions Finally she's alone Can she go through with it She has to She has no other choice She has tried everything else No other option She runs the water from the sink to discourage people from entering And with one slice, she lets the life flow from her wrists Its finally done.

Before I found you, My heart was so cold, And with all the drama around, I was about ready to fold. No matter how hard I fought, I knew I was losing. To everyone around me, It was practically amusing Watching me struggle, From day to day. And regardless of what I said or did, The pain just never went away. But then I found you, And everything changed for good. I suddenly got a feeling, That I never knew I would. Having you with me, Has given my life new meaning. You're the only one who had the ability, To unlock these hidden feelings. I'm falling for you, And everyday I fall further. My feelings are growing for you , And everyday they get stronger.

He is enchanted by her smell Her taste sends him to a joyous place He wants to be around her He needs to be with her all the time He has never been happier than when she is with him The way she feels in his hands Makes his body tingle with anticipation He has to hide her from his own family They can't know he is still with her They will want to take her away from him Nobody wants him to be with her But he is so happy with her Why can't they see how happy he is Aren't families supposed to support you Aren't they supposed to want you to be happy Shouldn't they be happy for him If only they could understand If only they tried to understand How she fills him with a warm sensation like no other woman can He will choose her over any other woman He already left one woman for her His wife She never understood how happy he was with her She tried to make him stop being with her How could she say she loves him Even to this day And still not be happy that he is in love So he told them all he left her He told them he was never going to see her again But he could never be without her He loves her too much She is his life His world Why should he leave her He is happy The way every man should be The way every person should be He found who he was meant to be with in life He wishes they all could be happy for him Because he will never leave her She is the love of his life It feels so right So it can't possibly be wrong to be with her It's just him and her now Until death do them part His one true soulmate Haze He is enchanted by her smell Her taste sends him to a joyous place He wants to be around her He needs to be with her all the time He has never been happier than when she is with him The way she feels in his hands Makes his body tingle with anticipation He has to hide her from his own family They can't know he is still with her They will want to take her away from him Nobody wants him to be with her But he is so happy with her Why can't they see how happy he is Aren't families supposed to support you Aren't they supposed to want you to be happy Shouldn't they be happy for him If only they could understand If only they tried to understand How she fills him with a warm sensation like no other woman can He will choose her over any other woman He already left one woman for her His wife She never understood how happy he was with her She tried to make him stop being with her How could she say she loves him Even to this day And still not be happy that he is in love So he told them all he left her He told them he was never going to see her again But he could never be without her He loves her too much She is his life His world Why should he leave her He is happy The way every man should be The way every person should be He found who he was meant to be with in life He wishes they all could be happy for him Because he will never leave her She is the love of his life It feels so right So it can't possibly be wrong to be with her It's just him and her now Until death do them part His one true soulmate Mary Jane

From the moment I laid eyes on you I knew you were special Just by the way you carried yourself Made me wanna be with you But nothing could have prepared me for what we have For the force that pulls us together Something that feels this good could never be bad And the best part is it keeps getting better I've never been happier in my entire life Never laughed to the point my stomache hurt That's why i think of you as my wife I feel like we were meant to be since birth Before you, I was scared Scared to just let loose and be myself It was almost like I was "fun impaired" My handicap was the inability to enjoy life itself But you were like the cure to my disease You brought out a side of me that was hidden to the world You brought my life happines, joy and peace - you complete me All these reasons are why - I love you Babygirl

It seemed he had it all just last week, So why does his life now look so bleak? He had the girl of his dreams, the love of his life, She was supposed to end up as his wife He loved her to death, shit he'd say "I still do", He would've bet his life that she loved him too. She said she did, apparently just not enough, Or she would have chose him and not that bum. A huge mistake was made, this even she knows, But what's left for him to do, besides let her go? He'll be waiting forever for her, But for him to think she will ever come back is absurd. For she now sports a ring on her left hand, Everytime he sees it, his heart takes another stab. He begins to regret the day they first kissed. He went for it all that day with her, and as usual he missed. So she stayed with the bum, now they're practically engaged, With his heart in her possession, locked inside a cage. Cold and alone is how he will forever remain. Cause he is always a loser when he plays "The Love Game" But if by some miracle he gets that call, And she comes back to him once and for all, His heart will be unlocked and let out the cage, And he will be with her for the rest of his days.

As I look into your eyes That little twinkle lights up my life. And when you laugh and smile You take away all my strife. Holding you in my arms Gives me warmth like no other. I'll never do you harm You're my first - no sisters or brothers. Forever in my heart 'll give you the world. I knew right from the start I'd make you a Daddy's Girl.

He's finally got his chance To get that last hit And he's desperate One last it is all he needs No other hit has ever mattered more This is the one It'll make his problem go away Even for just a short while He will be a winner Finally a winner Not the loser he is now The most important hit of his life If he can only to it Just a little further If he can only reach it He'll finaly get his hit He knows how it'll feel He needs that feeling That feeling is good He loves that feeling It sends chills up his spine just to think of how good it'll feel It'll make hime forget all his pain and sorrows For just that short time It'll be worth all the effort He stretches for the last little bit "SAFE!!!!" screams the firstbase umpire The game winning hit

When you first took my hand, My life changed forever. Your tiny hand curling around my finger, Was the best feeling I can remember. Watching you grow and discover the world, I knew from day one you were destined for great things. Never let anything stand in your way, Discover something new each day. Daddy will protect you until the end of his days, Look out for you and help you succeed. If ever you have a question or a problem, Rest assured you can always count on me.

He watches her from across the room Even with all these people around She is the only one he sees The only one that matters She glides across the room So elegant So perfect in all her movements It's almost like the rest of the room is grey and blurred from his vision And she has a spotlight focused only on her Everything about her is as it should be Her make-up is perfect Not too much, not too little Just the right amount of everything And the dress The dress is stunning on her She couldn't have picked a better dress Even from where he stands Across trhe room He can see how it brings out her eyes He walks around the room He needs to get closer Never takes his eyes off her Never losing sight of her beauty She laughs He is close enough to hear now HEr voice is enticing It lures him closer He can smell her perfume now Such a sweet scent He recognizes it immediately His favorite How did she know It's like she put it on just for him He feels himself get aroused He tries to ignore it He can't act on it now He has to control himself She turns and heads for the terrace Pulling out a cigarette as she gets closer He can see her through the glass doors She can't seem to find a light Now's his chance to speak to her To get closer to her He shows up behind her and offers her a light Perfect timing as usual He tells her he's been watching her all night He smokes a cigarette with her They talk all night She begins to trust him Her trust in him grows as the glasses of wine disappear By the end of the night he has to drive her home He takes her to her door She is too drunk to make it upstairs alone She invites him up with her He hesitates She grabs his hand He accepts her invitation he almost doesn't want to go But he knows he has to After all, she's too drunk to make it upstairs alone Or at least that's what he keeps telling himself He opens her door and helps her into her room She pulls him to the bed with her She is too drunk to fuck She passes out from too much alcohol in her system So he lays with her Silently Thinking about what he knows he must do He waits until he is sure she is asleep He decides against it He can't He slowly gets off the bed Making sure not to wake her up He starts to head for the door He has to leave Now Almost to the door He stops and looks back at her He can't leave yet He still has something he has to do He slowly walks back to the bed He doesn't want to But he knows he has to He sits next to her on the bed He leans down and kisses her cheek One last kiss He makes it last The silencer covers the sound of the shot She is dead before his lips seperate from her cheek