Crazysane's blog: "Life"

I am off to the dentist and to work. I would however like to ask a few of those who do read this to explain to me why I get ignored by so many on my friends and fans list. Fubar is made up of many people. Some who live on the site, Some who simply stay logged into the site, some who come and go as they please, and lastly some who come for a spell and eventually leave and never return. Lots and lots of folks have good intentions and come to get away from the reality of life. I know i come to make friends but find people to simply discuss life with and talk about day to day stuff. But I do find what little time i have to make new tags and pictures I find fun and different to post. It allows me to show off my artistic side instead of just simple chat and fellowship. So many people request a friendship and make me a fan here that you would think that when you post a bulletin or a picture they would actually come and check out the new stuff. As for me I know one person has always yelled at me because I wont go to their page on every picture they post but I have also told them time and time again that I am not one to do so. Some folks find they can deal with the same routine daily here by going to page after page after page after page and leaving comment after comment after comment after comment. I cannot stay with it for anymore than two or three pictures or profiles and then I simply get bored and restless and have to go do something else on the PC. Meaning I will go download music, softwares, movies, play trivia, work on the server or network i help run, work on pictures, or just surf the web for different stuff. Maybe it is A.D.D. or just my O.C.D. that interferes with my helping the masses here. But all in all it is who I am and i do not hide it from anyone. Will you please tell me why then so many folks find it offensive and wont just allow me to be me and still grace my page with more sincerity and be my true friend that they said they wanted to be. Words of thought, crazysane

Well today was quite the usual day. I woke up in a frenzy knowing i was going to be stressed by the time things were said and done. I went to the university bookstore today to buy my books and was floored when i saw the total for my books. I only had to get 5 total books this semester. Visual Basic 2005, Survey to calculus, two books for Intro to ethics, and Business law. So all in all it was only 5 books but the total for them, even as i had gotten USED BOOKS was a $491 bill. So I pay the bill knowing I am already in the hole and barely making ends meet. Next thing that happens is I get home to see email. This being the $3,000 dollar bill for my semester tuition that is now due. Putting me further back into debt and unable to even buy a blast here. I do what any good willed and living person does who is trying to further their education and make something of themselves but all too often others just never seem to care or want to help someone in an area that is supposed to be for fun and to hang with friends. I will make pictures, tags, morphs, and other goodies for folks but seems that doesn't matter since it doesn't really do anything for them anymore. I also know that time is something i do not have as i try to work as much as i can to pay those bills along with gas prices, food, doctor's, insulin's and supplies, and even food for the animals. But I do survive and I am a friend to those who want one that is true to who and what they are and not here to live in fantasy and make believe they are what they aren't. Help me if you can and i will be forever indebted to you. Thanks for letting me ramble, Josh