Murph's blog: "just something"

Yes i just saw a recipe for pickled bananas, what the fuck, that is some nasty shit right there, and even though no one will read this, i will be moving soon and probably wont be on for a little while, till i get on my feet anyway, unless i use my gfs computer, so have a nice day all and stuff

beckoning for a lost cause Do you feel like i feel all lost causes and no fill Nothing to gain nothing to lose but the though of you Hidden rhym out of time and fading quickly Made a mistake ready to break and i ask you Chorus: Can you hear me? I am Calling out for air. Feeling empty. Can anybody console me? Lost deep in side this stare. Can you feel me? Am I not worthy? Does anybody care? Do you know what i know? how to take it slow Or are you gone with out a trace or coming back real soon Am i blind just this time of your motives Or can i break all these chains that bind me to you But the question this time is am i out of time or Chorus: Chorus and: am i of time? am i out of time? what can i do? i just want to make i through? oh yes am i out time? what can i do? just to make it through to you. I am calling Can you hear i am calling yes im calling out to you

fire side, mystified, by the burning embers of life Clarify, a simple mind, Mysteries of love What if I, Told a Lie, Would it all be the same But What if I, tow the line, And forget it all Would you be there for me in the morning sun, or would i just loose my mind, What if i just say so, you cant ever face the day, that i cried you lost your life, the one you once adored, or am i blind, or out of time, mystified by what i lost in mind, but you cant take that away this time i am on my knees and i pray, so i can be blind to all this uncertain things you say, so today, i am by myself again, my mind, made up, my face, dirty from all the dirt, you threw in my face, to try to leave this all behind, what i, need to say, is i am breaking down again, lost inside a simple mind, loving no one, but you, and my eyes they burn, from all the ashes of breaking bleeding hearts, lost my mind? many times? or do i just see too much in it all, do i fly, am i blurry, because you cry so hard in your final breaths, you are sick and so am i, ive lost the time, to breath again so will you, forever more, crush my heart, under your feet or do i leave because i see you were never faithful all along all along all along

all my mistakes burning a whole into my soul im not lost but i am fading and i am failing and flailing my arms to keep ahold of all the necessary feeling interupted by your thoughtless ramblings, and having no choice but to break away to get whats mine and i feel you dont care, though you never did, and i bleed to touch whats right to hold by me though i slightly disagree with this plan of mine because if i fake it will it just get out of hand? do you mind what im craving, to discard your tust your lies have been thought out with breaking my heart in mind, is it yours is it mine the heart of all thats left behind, because i cant feel you hear, your body not your being, my mistake ive left behind my own, my precious heart, bursts open as you laugh, because you dont have a soul at all, but im done with all this madness because its contagious, and ive grown blacker all along, and now im cold, laying lifeless as i shiver, like a child just out of the womb tossed out by the roadside, and now i cry and im fighting this urge to be declined to what you once were the pearson that left my eye

my mistake made by lust... useless reckoning, your mistrust of me ... making me bleed i dont think so, but i dont know if you are the one to keep me living recklously fight the feeling that bring you harm your face is turning blue from the lack of air when you are struggling to break through the walls of your heart, just to feel yourself cry lost inside.. a dim lit place. for a moments time you try to find your way... but you are failing my mistake... leaving you out in the cold bloody fists that i pound into the earth your heart aches from the time you learned what you never have earned, your stomache it churns? drowning in the tide of regret, loose yourself, maybe once, maybe twice, but will you live again have you ever wondered what you have in store for abandoning your life and what you used to hold dear to you? have you lost yourself in the flood of dispare, are you sinking, are you drowning, you cant swim? you have lost your life now you lay yourself down in your bed and dream, and you have lost your faith and and wonder why

Im out of time, trying to leave this all behind, i walk away from everything ive loved and lost, but my feelings numb and i cant rise above, so i fall to my knees and pray............... show me the way that i can make it back home, to where i feel so loved, give me a reason, for thing exhile, and why must i run and hide to breath...... only once, did i feel this way, only once did i wish id said, that i loved, but i didnt, and we went our seperate ways so please........ show me the way i can make it back home, to were i feelt so loved, but now its all gone, I know the reason you feelt so hurt and alone, and i still love you, just let me go home, cause i need you........... i walked away....... lead astray...... miss everything........ that we were... now its gone way........ show me the way back home, to where i left you alone, to were where you should have feelt loved, show me the answere, to what i want to hear, but it is what i might fear

my mistake by mistake, i thought i lived my life just right but i was wrong but now i know everything works out the way it should shit maybe i just wish it would cause so long ive waited for someone like you to come along and give me a reason to live and make the wrongs in my life ok, but maybe i will just be ok living a lie like no other before, i see the light from some distant shore, oh tonight, i beg for something more, and maybe i will live my life like i did before what will it take, just to keep from another fight, to love to feel it everyday, your heart is beating softly under my finger tips, i love you but i know you love someone else, just another man, i am, just the one you run back to everytime you feel your, living a lie like no other before, you think you see the light from a distant shore, oh tonight, you pray i could be something more, maybe you live your life, or you will just make the same mistakes as before oh now i see who you are, oh now i know what this is for, oh now i cant take more more, and i deserve much better, oh how i would love to think you cared oh how i wish i knew you owuld be there when i wake in the morning from this lonelynes, but i am just living a lie like no other before, i see the light oh from a distance, what is this life for tonight i beg for something more, or maybe i will just live the way i did before YOU

Dust settles on this wreck today, the games we played and now we've lost, all faith, its a tragedy, to think that we could have survived if we just change our minds NOW WE ARE ALL TO BLAME, WE SHOULD ALL BE ASHAMED Hope dangles from a thining string, ready to break and rip us all at the seems, and i know when the wind blows, that we all are dying to live our lives without shame though we tore away from what we loved, and i cant remember when this all was great, when i lives WERE NOT TANGLED IT VAIN, IN VANITY IM ASHAMED OF ME AND ALL OF YOU, WE COULD HAVE WALKED AWAY NOW WE ARE ALL ASHAMED, BECAUSE THE LIES WE'VE MADE TO THIS VERY DAY MADE US STUGGLE TO LIVE OUR LIVES one thought, ive tried to surrender to you, a long time ago but now im colder and bolder and have been mistaken, LEAVE ME alone, we all are, alone, we'd like to say, that our lives are better, under the covers, with our heads in the sand im not bitter, just waiting for the end

I walk in pass out just the night before, but thats ok you left me for something more, so i cry and try it again, try to hold on to some feelings i cant mend, so say to you, whats the use and why try to find something new, with a heart so blue i cant go on trying to love you...... Chorus, so with blackened hearts and a broken fist, writings this letter to you, probably never send in time, but hey i never could lie, but who are you to waiste my time, like a two pence whore, never trying for more than just a thrill, night after night, but hey ive done my time, but you are still blind So i fall on my face, the alchohol masks the pain if only for a minute, but im in it so deep without a solution, its just polution, causing a hole in my heart, but hey it was there from the start, but who am i to try to hold you, hell i was never there to console you.... Chorus, so with blackened hearts and a broken fist, writings this letter to you, probably never send in time, but hey i never could lie, but who are you to waiste my time, like a two pence whore, never trying for more than just a thrill, night after night, but hey ive done my time, but you are still blind but you dont mind