It has been a little while since I wrote anything on here so I thought I would let everyone know I am alive lol. I have been having some rough times but who hasn't, I guess I am trying really hard to make it through them by myself to show everyone that I can do it. It is really hard to figure out lifes major things when other things are happening too.
I am doing better than I was doing for a bit...I was a little crappy for a minute lol. I am starting to figure out that I can't change what things aren't in my power to change, but the things that are, like me and my suroundings can be fixed. I can also control how I handle how people treat me and act towards me. If someone wants you in their life...they will show it. And BELIEVE ME I know who wants me in their life now a days.
I hate it so much when people turn out to be not at all what you thought. It is a sad thing. I will get over it though and learn from it. Now to just move on. I am very sad that certian people in my life choose to be distant and out of my life...perhaps I caused it...maybe I made them run away. I am not sure too many feelings that I feel, but I do know to get past the hurt...I must move on, and I will.
I am learning to grow other ways. I am in the process of writing a book, or trying to anyway lol. I am concentrating on trying to keep my house going so I can stay on my own. And if I have to take other measures I will figure that out and deal with it. I don't want to do that, so I am working really hard trying to keep myself going in my own house. It isn't easy, but again I am going to learn and grow from this and it will make me better and stronger having gone through it.
I am glad to be feeling just a little better I thank God for that. I really hope that it stays this way for a long time to come. I have been trying to change my attitude about things and people...It can't rain all the time huh?
