just a few thoughts and explainations to my friends who dont mind listening...
lately i have been distant to my friends, espically the closest ones who i talk w on the phone or txt...
trying to help my family...and an ex of mine has come back into the picture again...
i am probably setting myself up for heart break again, but i have to follow my heart...
he joined fubar again..his new name is Lord Death...
for most who have read my other blogs...espically the ones labeled feeding my soul... and missing my soul mate...i wrote them with this young man in mind...
you know how sometimes u just instantly connect w a person b4 u even meet them??? well thats what this young man has done with me... i started haveing dreams and lucid visions of him back in october 2000... i met him online this past july of 07, i told him of these dreams...and all he kept saying is i found what i dremt... he claims that its been 5 years ago since he had such a strong connection to a woman as we share...
you know i hide behind this screen...and pour my emotions into what i write...a few weeks ago i started feeling sry for myself again and let my depression start to take root again...i have so much to offer in so many different ways, and yet i am still alone...
the same day i posted the blog days like this and missing my soul mate, he contacted me on a regular basis again...3-30-08
i am probably just setting myself up again to have my heart broken...but the feelings he stirs in my soul are so strong...
so i apologize to my friends for being quiet latly to u and not posting comments as i used to...and i am sry lady spiritwolf for not being more emotionally available for you as well...
