Yeah...so recently, I've been living by this thought--'Don't try and break me, I'm stronger than u think'. I think its very fitting for me right now. It seems like there are people in my life that claim they have my best interests in mind, but when it came right down to it, tried to break me anyways. To me...that's just wrong. I'm a smart woman. Hell, sometimes I don't act it, but you better start seeing it. I'm fed up with people telling me they want something outta me and then backing down. If you think some other person is better suited for you--then go for it. DO NOT pussy foot around with me, because it gets neither of us anywhere. Yes, I said it--do not just beat around the bush....like I've said a hundred times before, I'm a big girl and I'm not gonna break down and cry over it. TRUST ME. Its strange, because lately, I'm just numb to anything like that. I think maybe its a sign of me growing up and just knowing that person was really only in my life for a season. It taught me something--mainly that I'm so worth something. All in all, sometimes you have to let the other person say something that has been on your mind just so you can let go and that's just what I've done. I'm sitting here listening to Dixie Chicks-Let er' rip---and that is JUST how I feel about things. Thank goodness for songs that can actually say it all for you! WOOHOO!
Well, honey and I hung out last night. It was really nice. Just went over to his house and watched a movie with him. Nothing major happened, but it was still a nice time. He had sent me an actual message, just checking on how I was doing and showed some concern, which was very nice. I still have alot of feelings for him and I think there is something there for him on the other end too, but for right now, I'm not gonna push anything. I think that is how both of us need it. He's really a great guy and I think we have a good time just hanging out, so this is how I'm gonna do it for right now. I have to stop and realize that I want to have a great friendship with him first and foremost and then if something does come from it, well, at least we have the friendship part covered and know each other really well. Its all good right now.
Well, I'm off to have IV therapy this morning. Have a slight infection, so have to get rid of it so I can finally attempt to go back to work! Healing after surgery has been alittle slower than I might have liked, but so far so good. I lost my faith alittle yesterday that I had done the right thing by having it, but thanks to Bobbie Jo (love ya girl!), she totally restored my faith and I know things will get better! Just reminds me again that God has blessed me with wonderful people in my life and I'm so grateful! For all those who actually read this--I'm glad your in my life. I know each of you are in my life to teach me something and to have lots of fun along this crazy ride called life! Love ya all!!!
