mysticalangel's blog: "death"

The Girl In The Dark Has a beautiful face without a name And a beautiful smile to hide the pain This Girl In the Dark Has cuts up her arm Loves nothing more then self harm This Girl in the dark Doesnâ??t know how much longer she can keep trying Everyday sheâ??s slowly dying This Girl in the Dark Sits all alone Wants a place to truly call home This Girl in the dark Wants nothing more then to be free I know this because this Girl is me Who am I? What happened? Where am I? Why am I here? Those are the questions I ask myself Why do I have to be here? What have I done so wrong to make me sit here in silence? Those are the questions I would like to ask myself But i know exactly what i did.. Or do I? I have fallen into a pit of darkness. Its silent the only person there is me Its like a prison with no light It is no light because i do not look for it I have not found the light yet. I know exactly why i am here. Or do I? I have forgotten I am so lonely down here But..thats because i chose to live that way Why is my life full of darkness and pain This is not the life I want to live or Is it? I ask my self those questions.. And I have to answer them Now I know why i am in the pit full of darkness And it is because The darkness in my heart has over powered me I have no self control i have the urge to hurt be mean. But why..then i remember its the darkness in me heart

dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in pain I dream of love as time runs through my hand I dream of fire Those dreams are tied to a horse that will never tire And in the flames Her shadows play in the shape of a man's desire This desert rose Each of her veils, a secret promise This desert flower No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this And as she turns This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams This fire burns I realise that nothing's as it seems I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand wake in pain I dream of love as time runs through my hand I dream of rain I lift my gaze to empty skies above I close my eyes, this rare perfume Is the sweet intoxication of her love I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in pain I dream of love as time runs through my hand Sweet desert rose Each of her veils, a secret promise This desert flower No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this Sweet desert rose This memory of Eden haunts us all This desert flower, this rare perfume Is the sweet intoxication of the fall

Kiss me on my forehead And lay me down to sleep Kiss away my tears And pray my soul to keep Hold me in the darkness Chase away nightmares Hold me tightly to you Far from accusing stares Whisper softly to me Quietly through the night Whisper words of love And cuddle me so tight Hold my hand in yours Lay so close together Hold onto this feeling We'll make it last forever Kiss me on my forehead As I slowly close my eyes Kiss me on my lips As we say our last goodbyes

One Cold Rainy Night I sit in my room out of sight I look at a bottle of Pills and a knife Wondering which one should end my life I must do it tonight Before Midnight I learned life isn't fair And No one Cares I pick up the knife My life is done One quick slash And In a flash I'm on the floor I lie there dying as you walk in You scream at the sight "Mom, I gave up the fight" As I lay back My whole world goes Black

I want to die I want to escape For I am calling my fate Before its too late I asked for help But No one seems to Care It isn't fair Its a Horrible Fact Thats True I'm dying cause of you you pushed me to far. And I Can't go on I know what I'm doing is wrong There is no tomorrow and there's no one today You'll be next in line and soon we'll meet GoodBye and Amen For my Life must end

Today is the day I've waited for I can't wait no more For tonight I'll take my life I'll probably use a knife I cannot stand For I guess a good life was to much to demand I cann't Handle pressure and pain For I can't stay sane And Now all I see is red Things will get better once I am dead I am going to Die So I say Goodbye

I get a funny feeling, it comes from deep inside. I get all mad and angry, wanting to go and hide. My doctor calls it depression, my dad says it's just me. But the thoughts and feelings, no one will ever be able to see. Some say I'm psycho, some say I'm just weird. It's like I'm a different person, and the old me just disappeared. I get really edgy, I want to commit suicide real bad. Then I get a headache, followed by feeling sad. I wish I could get help, I wish it would go away. Maybe if I keep praying real hard, it will some day.

MY life closed twice before its close-- It yet remains to see If Immortality unveil A third event to me So huge, so hopeless to conceive As these that twice befell. Parting is all we know of heaven, And all we need of hell.