darkness
Darkness. I feel so empty I sit and cry longing for someone to hold me...too many emotions to handle but no one to talk to ...no one to hold me close and tell me it will be okay... no one comes ..no one cares. Thoughts race through my head as the darkness grows the hole becomes bigger..the Tears flow from my eyes like fountains. Why can't all the pain just end? Why do i constantly have to feel this way? I get the gun..Just one squeeze of a trigger and all the pain will end I think to myself. I sit in the corner rocking back and forth.. I think of how I lost my one true love and the darkness wich consumes me grows.. It becomes cold. Why can't any one just be here for me? Just someone to talk to, they dont even have to really care or listen just pretend...I steadaly fall deeper into the dark. The hatred the lies the words they say swarm inside my head. I put the gun to my head and place my finger on the trigger then just as i think this is it all the pain is going to end with one squezze of the trigger no moe thoughtts no more pain.. I see a small light in the darkness I go towards the the light.. Slowly the darkness fades away, I see a precious little girl full of love and hope that probably would not make it if I was gone that little girl is my pride and joy. Not a child of mine my babysisiter whom i have rased. I put the gun away.The darknss fades completlyThe thoughts stop racing through my mind the hole closes...for now. Copyright ©2006 Bekah Dyann Sedigas
