SinisterInsomniac's blog: "Cryptic Entries"

I can't escape this hell So many times i've tried But i'm still caged inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal (This animal, this animal) I can't escape myself (I can't escape myself) So many times i've lied (So many times i've lied) But there's still rage inside Somebody get me through this nightmare I can't control myself So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal Somebody help me through this nightmare I can't control myself Somebody wake me from this nightmare I can't escape this hell (This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal) So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal I have become Help me believe it's not the real me Somebody help me tame this animal (This animal I have become)

Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt When happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Anger and agony Are better than misery Trust me I've got a plan When the lights go off you will understand Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing Rather feel pain I know (I know I know I know I know) That you're wounded You know (You know you know you know you know) That I'm here to save you You know (You know you know you know you know) I'm always here for you I know (I know I know I know I know) That you'll thank me later Pain, without love Pain, can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Rather feel pain than nothing at all Rather feel pain

It's a wild Wild world It's a wild Wild world And there's money to be made off someone else's shame Every day and every night there's something going wrong City rats to suburbanites hold tight 'cause this is your song It's a wild Wild world That you might not believe in It's a wild Wild world That can be so deceiving And there's money to be made off someone else's shame And there's money to be made off someone else's pain Time can turn it's back on you, leave you broken and asking for A little bit more and less to lose, you lie and cheat and steal just to score It's a wild Wild world It's a wild Wild world It's a wild Wild world It's a wild Wild world And there's money to be made off someone else's shame And there's money to be made off someone else's pain Broken glass and alcohol, bars on windows, security walls You don't belong here in this place, you're too good for that I can see it in your face It's a wild Wild world That you might not believe in It's a wild Wild world That can be so deceiving (It's a wild Wild world) It's a wild Wild world (It's a wild Wild world) It's a wild Wild world

Out on your own, Cold and alone again. Can this be what you really wanted, baby? Blame it on me, Set your guilt free. Nothing can hold you back now. Now that you're gone, I feel like myself again. Grieving the things I can't repair and willing... To let you blame it on me, And set your guilt free. I don't want to hold you back now love. I can't change who I am. Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me. And in this short life, there's no time to waste on giving up. My love wasn't enough. And you can blame it on me, Just set your guilt free, honey. I don't want to hold you back now love.

Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. Should I let you fall? Lose it all? So maybe you can remember yourself. Can't keep believing, We're only deceiving ourselves . And I'm sick of the lie, And you're too late. Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. Couldn't take the blame. Sick with shame. Must be exhausting to lose your own game. Selfishly hated, No wonder you're jaded. You can't play the victim this time, And you're too late. Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. You never call me when you're sober. You only want it cause it's over, It's over. How could I have burned paradise? How could I - you were never mine. So don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. Don't lie to me, Just get your things. I've made up your mind.

Crawl through the flames that eat your flesh Drowned in the waters that know you best Step inside I've been waiting here for you On your knees, where you shall crawl Flying so high you'll never fall Step inside we've been waiting here for you Bow down, you've chose your maker He never gives he's always a taker The electric burns that fuel the fire It's just your suicide messiah Walk through the streets that know your name All that's pure is now insane Step inside I've been waiting here for you Another trip, another lie Life's hand of doom has you feeling fine Step inside we've been waiting here for you

I've been around this world Yet I see no end All shall fade to black again and again This storm that's broken me My only friend In this river all shall fade to black In ths river ain't no coming back In this river all shall fade to black Ain't no coming back Withdrawn I step away Just to find myself The door is closed again The only one left This storm that's broken me My only friend