I trusted him. I believed him. I made excuses for him. No not abusive but a long distance relationship. Well if you can call it that looking back.
I respected him and kept things quiet for the most part told my friends about us no one we had in common. He said it was cause he didn't want anyone to know his private life. I wanted to believe that but I now wonder how many others did he have believing him, believing they were special to him. He would make promises but not follow through then say that he didn't want me questioning his honesty because that was the most important thing to him. He just had a lot going on.
I wasn't a FU girl friend that was never what I wanted yet it turned into all I was. I guess he wanted to see how much he could get from me. I kept giving, not things but emotions something I hold very close and almost never give out.
I can't believe I fell for that I would tell anyone they are a fool. But I guess I'm so desperate to believe someone could love me that I believed the lies. How could I be so blind? I really loved him now I don't know that I will ever trust my feelings again. I don't trust people but stepped outside of myself to do so now I don't know that I will be able to do that again.
