why do i feel like i am so alone? i feel like i have pushed so many people out of my life.. so maybe people that i cared about, and that meant something special to me. i sit here while my son is sound a sleep, and think about my life.. he is all i have, and i dont know what i would do if he ever got taken from me. he is the reason i stand up in the morning, the reason i go to work, the reason i come home. he is all i have. without him i would have nothing what so ever. most days i feel like a bad mom because i want a break from him, or because i dont know how to interact with him. i feel alone because i have no one to turn to, no one to hug me and tell me that everything will be okay. no one to share my day with. i will never have someone who will want to stay with me, never get married, never have the family that i secretly dream about. i am alone again, like always and it hurts more than my words or tears could explain.
