Once again I sit here and drink missing you, loving you and needing you more than ever. Knowing that the one man I want more than anything I can never have. The distance between us is greater than any distance on Earth. I don't even know the distance between Heaven and Earth. You are the one man who has hurt me most, but loved me more than any ever will. The one man I'll love more than any other. You completed me and I think I completed you. But we broke each other's hearts and you hurt so very much. So many times I wanted to end it all, as you did, but never could, hoping one day that I was wrong with what I've known since the last moment I saw you. Knowing that was the last time I would hold you, touch you, smell you. Knowing that one day you would not be here anymore and I'd be alone, forever. Forever alone, never to love anyone, as I love you. I've tried to love but as always I get rejected. Therefore, noone will have my heart , my love as you. I've lost who I was and who I am, I will stay lost for awhile I think. I need you
