I'm sure that there's a great number of interesting and not so interesting things I could list here for your eyes to peruse, assuming that you decide to get this far. I could tell you all about myself. I could write about my dreams. I could write about my hopes. I could put all the words down that would describe me perfectly and you would obviously fall head over heels for me. Obviously.




Let's face it. We all have ideal images of ourselves and distorted personal views about who we are and what we appear to be. We all put on faces and no one person is the same every minute of the day. I put on tons of faces and I won't lie, some of them are as fake as the many a photoshopped pictures you find on myspace. Some of them are as real and as solid as anything you could grasp with your own two hands.




I fancy myself to be a decent and remotely humorous person. I crack myself up.. maybe not to other people, but that's okay. However, it again boils down to perception. Some people don't find jokes about blenders, babies and cancer to be all that funny.




Like many people, I suffer from moments of highs and then there are those lows. Some might call me emo.. blah, blah. I however, have decided to replace that word with the word bagel. From here on out the word emo is replaced with bagel. (I made this shit up so seriously all others are poor imitations). I encourage the use of the word bagel as often as possible to confuse others.




One of the last things that happens here in fantasy land is that people tell me I think too much. I put too much thought into things and hence I seem to go on and on. Each word is carefully chosen. The decisions I make I know have consequences so I like to think about them. Yet sometimes I don't think about things at all.




I think everyone tries to fit in, so we never see who people really are, unless we take the time to get to know them. That's why I believe in individuality, and expressing yourself. People know who I am. I seem to be the one with crazy ideas. Yeah, I'm immature, I like being young. It's a way to escape reality. If you try growing up too fast,you'll always take everything so seriously. In contrast to this, I think logic is important.I like to have reasoning for things.




I'm a very sarcastic person, even though being sarcastic isn't always a good trait. I'm a kid at heart, which means I love cracking old jokes, coloring in coloring books, and watching all those new kiddie shows. I'm not judgmental whatsoever. I don't like to assume things about people. I'm a sweetheart. I'm very sensitive and tend to get hurt by almost everyone that I ever meet in life. I love sweet talk. I think it's adorable no matter how lame it might seem. I'm actually a very emotional person. Things get to me really easily, but I tend to suck it up and act like nothing bothers me. There are only a few people that I can actually open up to. I change a lot from year to year, but I'm glad that I do because each year I learn something new about myself. It's an easy way to find out who you really are




I've got self confidence issues. I know I'm labeled, but that's what you get when you live in a corrupted world when people make fun of you for being unique.




Education, school. I like it. It makes me prepared for life after high school or college. Dork? Definitely. We can't deny that we need education to survive in today's economy and lifestyle. I do get tired of getting up early and getting ready, who doesn't. At the end of the day though, you know that it was worth it.




I think I've changed over the years. There are things in the past that I regret doing till this day, though that may be, I know that there's nothing I can do about it now.




So in closing I suppose I will say a few things, lessons I have learned and maybe somewhere, someone will read them and it will click. You are nothing more than your life. You make that life, the choices are yours so if you don't like where you are, do something about it. Sometimes it doesn't seem easy but it can be done. We are alone in this world and there are no excuses left to us. We are condemned to this freedom. Condemned because the one decision we did not have was to create ourselves, yet once thrown into this world we are free and responsible for all that we do. Well, you made it to the end.. you get a cookie.