Hello everyone,I am a mother and a wife. I am originally from Texas. I moved out here with my first husband and have lived here off and on for 17 years. I have had 4 children. My oldest son just turned 16 on April 20th,2012. Jonathon lives in WA. Unfortunately, circumstances caused me to have to give him up and he was adopted by a wonderful family that was able to give him what I could not at that time in my life. Leslie Louise Elaine passed away of S.I.D.S. in 1998, she was 4 months old. She would have been 14 years old on January 8th 2012.

My 2 youngest children live with me here in CA. My son Joshua was born on May 22,2000, he is 12 years old and he is in the 7th grade. He is a straight A student and getting awards all the time. He is almost 5'5 & his shoe size is 12 in men. It is so hard to believe that he was so small when he was born and that he is taller than me. He plays a lot of different sports. He reminds me all the time that he wants to be a Pro football player. My youngest will be 8 yrs old on July 15th. Her name is Alexis and she is in 3rd grade. Alexis and Joshua are half brother and sister but they really don't know what that means. He is such a protective son and brother. I raised him by myself until 2003. My husband was trying to be a good father figure to Joshua but once Lexy was born, he became really distant and didn't want to be a step dad but about 2 or 3 years ago, he finally came around and now they have somewhat of a relationship. They still have their ups and downs but I guess that is expected. I am extremely blessed because my husband's parents accepted Josh as their grand child and me as their daughter. Him and his sister are very different. Joshua does have A.D.H.D in which since being put on meds has became a great student and well mannered young man. Alexis on the other hand is still figuring out things. Sometimes I think she is 8 going on 30.

I wanted to change the About Me info because reading that I have 2 children makes me feel like I am not being completely honest with myself.I think about my other 2 children that are not with me everyday and wish I could have done things differently but I was young and had no life experience. I didn't have anyone that I could really go to for advice,but now I really look at my mistakes and try not to make the same mistakes that I did before. I was going through the death of my mother just a few years earlier and after my daughter passing away,loosing Jonathon and then loosing my marriage all at 21yrs old, I really dont know how I made it through all of the pain and grief but I did, it made me stronger and a better mother, wife, and person for the future. However, I think about what and how I could have done things differently but I try to tell myself that everything happens for a reason even if it hurts still today.

My children are everything to me and they will always come first before anything or anyone. God gave me a second chance to be a better wife and mother as well as better person. I was young and had no knowledge on how the world works, as well as to expect disappointment from others. Even though my marriage is currently very rocky, I am trying my best to make it work but even today at the age of 35, its still hard to except all the betrayal from a person that commited his life to me.I'm not perfect but I am not a cheater, thief, nor liar, I know that I am not perfect but it should be a 50/50. I never ever wanted to get divorced the first time therefore I am giving it my all for my daughters sake. Even though things are still tough, and rough I am now older and more capable of handling the ups and downs of life as well as marriage. I'm very grateful for the blessings in my life, however my past is as important to me today as is my present and my future as I still think about my past life with my children as well as the other relationships I pray that each and everyone of them know how much I still love them and think of them on a daily basis. As I sit here writing this I still wish things could have been different, but it's not, therefore I just take one day at a time. Hopefully one day we will see each other again.

I am currently a full-time student an currently the sole provider which is extremely difficult but my mother in law helps me in which I'm very grateful.Also, God has placed a wonderful people around me. One person in my life, is my best friend and her name is Leslie which is ironic. She is such a great friend that has really helped me stay positive, moving towards my goals in life so that I will have stable career to provide a stable and secure home for my family. She has really helped me get my confidence back as well as standing up for who I am and to not take crap from anyone anymore.


So,that is some very deep details about me.