I know I have the ability to make everything in my life more complicated than it needs to be. I am aware of this. I've made some pretty interesting choices in my life...most of which I stick by. Some of them have been good. Some of them have been lame. But even the lame ones had something good come out of them. So I'm greatful for the good experiences that have come from my choices, even the lame choices. I've heard that eventually everything will pan out...but I don't think that fate can do it all alone...it needs a good nudge now and then. On another note... Quick, repent your evil demon ways...wait a minute...uh...yeah...I mean...Don't cave in and become like the rest of them!...all soul-less carbon-copy freaks in zombie bodies splashing holy water on themselves, which in turn only burns their flesh and corrodes their eyeballs...I'm scared of morphing into a carbon-copy person overnight...I'm scared of being forced to live a khaki-tan life and fill the world with more identical worker ants. Why do our dreams seem to fade as we get older...we are now just taking life as it is instead of expecting more....but I want to expect more from it...and i want to believe that it can be more than it seems to be. I don't want to settle...i don't want to give in and I won't believe that it has to be a certain way just because 'that's the way it is'. i want to challenge it and i want to live my dreams and make sure that they come true! I don't want to lay down and be forgotten...that's not what I want. I want to be happy, I want to be free, I want to be loved, and I want to be me. Who knows what'll be next...assuming of course that us homos don't loose our right to actually live normal lives, with jobs and apartments and families and whatnot...i mean they could always just store us in crates like veal, just to torment us...or ship us off to the bermuda triangle...however a whole lost island full of homos might get a little crowded! My words of wisdom are: hell hath no fury like the wrath of ex-girlfriends. And for the record, pretty girls make me nervous!