shy almost to a phobia
I am nobody
To all the girls I’ve loved before, every one of you said I was too nice and to sweet and that you were not good enough for me, the lies because you wanted to spare my feelings not knowing that the lies hurt more than the truth, I know I have too much fear in me but you all fail to see that I am something different I have chosen my own path in this life and I have never wanted to hurt anyone and so I live my life trying not to hurt anyone I know that these qualities are not endearing to you so I know I will die alone to never have and to hold a woman to share the Love I desperately want to give am I less of a man because of the way I chose to be I don’t believe so when I’m dead and gone I would want you to remember one thing about me that I chose to try to live my life every day without hurting a soul, don’t be sad for me I understand I’m not what you would think of as a man or how a man should be but it is what I must be even if it means a life spent alone without someone to hold and Love, I have never wanted contentment I always wanted extraordinary is it a dream maybe but it is one I believe exist, the pain in my heart from all the lonely days spent alone is almost more than I can bare but I endure for I made a promise to GOD although I believe I must let him down greatly, may we all someday see past the BS to see the truth and may you one day be able to see me, I would like to thank Willie for the opening line To all the girls I’ve loved before that never walk in or out my door, I may not be much but I try to be honest and kind and good again I know not the qualities that endears you to me but it’s who I want to be anyway thank you for your time in reading this little piece of me