Mysterious Euphoria engulfs my Ethereal Aura.
Nothing more. Trying to figure know who I
am is in comparison to attempting to imagine
the unimaginable... And is a lesson in futility.
You may disbelieve that I am more than I seem;
I really couldn't care more what anyone
thinks of me.
If you really want to "know" me, then pick up
your fucking lazy cuticals and ask in a more
personal manner. I only associate with people that interest me...If you don't intrigue me...I will kill your loved ones. (insert classic B-movie style psychotic
snicker here). BITE ME!!!.......
...Seriously, I try to be the best that I can be;
for good, or for evil...mainly evil. I have, like
everyone else, been through more than my fair share
of terrible situations... Some self-inflicted, others
caused by the never-ending apathy of human existence......
I am 23, married, yet sometimes feel completely alone.
My solitude and loneliness bring me a certain comfort
that family life can't. Sometimes I protect it a little
too well.......
I go through phases where I can almost learn to accept
myself and others for all our faults, but so far, no
progress. But be that as it may, I do not pass serious
judgement on people... Unless they're cheerleaders. Ha!
I'm always struggling to find that wonderous little place
of doubt; and I hope it stays hidden, for where would
the fun be if I actually found it?...................
It may be hard for those people who somewhat know me to
believe, but I know when a person is lying, or precisely
what secret they are keeping from me. Yes it's true;
but while I am a great secret-absorber, I am an
excellent keeper. I have never betrayed the trust of a friend in that manner.......
I tend to be a very INTENSE person, FOR THIS I WILL NOT FUCKING APOLOGIZE! I live in my head alot, and I do
not greet visitors with a warm welcome...I keep alot
bottled up inside. I let myself be conquered by long
fits of depression, and surprisingly enough, I happen to enjoy it; makes me feel like I give a shit about something.
I can be a hermit at most times, but I still live life
more intensely than most will ever come close to (hear about my overseas adventures). I hear music when no-one
else can. I gaze upon the colours of my own personal
rainbow; mostly just sweet, sensitive hues of darkness
and despair.........................................
Being a husband and father isn't a slice of tropical pie,
but I have always been great at everything that I aspire
to put effort into....
And what is this about people who want to help and "fix"
me? DID I ASK FOR A FUCKING SHRINK? I am the only one who can change me, and despite the teeth, I tolerate the
person that I have become. Why the HELL would you want to
change me anyway? If you can't accept me as someone you
would let date your daughter, sister, or a really
cute cousin, then GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE!!!
I am this sinister, dark-heartless person, AND I AM
GODDESS-BE-DAMNED CONTENT WITH IT!, mainly because I
get my strength from the negatives of life; your bad day
makes me feel dominant and in control..... I am always seeking knowledge. I am in a constant state of mind expansion; I believe in beauty, freedom, art, truth,
and passion. I try to constantly surround
myself with music, books; art in all forms.
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There you have it; You have only heard .001% of my
total personality, but it just may have been enough
for you to get the basic picture... or scare you
into a crying little ball of shame. Hopefully the latter.