ok, i have been here for over a year now and apparently i left things too ambiguous, so, for clarification, i will tell you what i am and what i'm not...

what i am:
i am a vampyre, a blood drinker, not a role player or pretender.
i am a goth, i dress dark, i like dark things. i listen to goth/goth metal and symphonic metal.
i am 41 years old, which mean i have matured beyond drama and high school antics. i look for other mature people who can have intelligent conversations.
i have a woman whom i love very much, don't assume i'm gonna leave her. flirting is one thing, seriousness is another, please know the difference.
i am NOT going to relocate, i love my mountains and won't leave them.

what i'm not:
i'm not looking for a relationship beyond friends, see above. i already have a woman.
i'm not happy, chipper and conservative i say what's on my mind, and it's usually dreary and angry.
i'm not stupid. don't assume i am. i have pretty much seen and heard it all so don't try to get over on me.
i'm not evil, contrary to popular belief. just because i don't put up with idiocy and will point it out doesn't make me evil.
i'm not disloyal to my friends. loyalty is everything. i expect the same in return. i will do anythin for my friends, but don't assume i am a push over.

i say it like it is. i say what people NEED to hear and not what they WANT to hear, and in that spirit understand it isn't out of disrespect but out of the fact that i care. i wanted to clarify these things because too many misunderstandings and broken friendships have occured. i want my friendships to last and for that to happen these things need to be understood.
i am sorry if i come across as stuck up or aloof, but it's the way things must be for everyone to get along.
thank you for taking the time to read this, anything you'd like to know, just ask. my life is an open book.