Stuff for your blog!Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes.the name is martha.. im 16 i live in webster mass. i am a very shy person but once i get to know u i dont shut up. i live with 4 of my friends heidi myke kazo and steff. my hosue is the party house. we r always having fun n doing nothing but chillen.i like DRUGS get over it. if it wasnt for my real friends i wouldnt be where i am right now. ive been threw alot of crap so if u feel like giving me some shit im already used to that. i dont need people to feel bad for me but i am a fucked up person. i have very fucked up thoughts as well. im psychotic. i dont like to be judged, i also dont like to be labled. i am myself and nothing more. i am also a very caring person. sometimes i care about my true friends a little too much. i fucking hate backstabers but unfortunately i live in a sea of them. umm. i used to be a very bad pill popper but i stopped that shit. i dont like to be ignored. i am very emotional, but only to a point. i have an odd obsesion with spiders. i dont try to impress people i am myself and if you dont like it you can fuck off. im not a normal sterotype chick i hate pink, i like gory type of girl things such as blood and guts and other odd stuff make me happy. i always seem to find myself getting hurt. i may only be 16 but ive been threw alot in my life. unlike most chicks im not afriad of abusive guys. i used to be with one and everytime he hit me i would hit him back. ive seen my bestfriend/boyfriend die right in my arms(jake). the coldest feeling in the world is to watch the life fade out of someones eyes. to sit there and tell them that they r going to be ok and have them slip right out from ur grip. most people seem to fuck me over in one way or anouther. i also seem to have an issue with getting myself into problems... but i always seem to manage to get right back out of them. im not really a rap person at all. im a rocker type of chick and some punk as well. i love caution tape but i dont know why. im a random person.... but not too random. i wear mostly all black with a little bit of color. i also love tanktops. i have relized that you never really get anywhere in life by taking big steps... live your life day by day... step by step. i get agrivated quite fast. most of the time its the smallest things that will piss me off. i have an issue with not being able to show my emotions so most of the time i just sit here with them bottled up inside... on the outside im happy but inside im really crying. im very good at hiding my emotions. im not afriad of much at all. im not scared of anyone.... when someone tells u to watch out for the weirdos their talking about me. i dont have a boyfriend right now but i dont care. theres nothing worse the a liar in my eyes. i dont like people who try to mold me into what they want. i am myself and if u dont like it then you can go fuck yuorself. i hate fakes and pozers if u really need to dress or act a different way to impress people get the fuck over it they arnt your real friends. i have a very open mind. 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