I am not having the best time of life at this point in it, I went to Alaska for work my brother fuckin lied to my wife of fifteen years and now I have been trying to get a woman back that I have loved with everything in me for over half my life. This past Easter made 1yr and she still wants a divorce I didn't cheat on her I was letting a woman and her friend use my room while I worked nightshift, who cares what they were doing I was at work is the way I seen it. But I have went through hell just to say I love you and get a bug I walked for eight days from San Antonio TX to Cleburne TX and I have been unemployed since the day I got laid off, day before Thanksgiving, I have been completely homeless since December 10th day before my birthday I have spent every holiday alone except for new years Eve thought I was making good progress when she asked me to pawn my survival knife so she and her friend could get weed and beer the next day she snapped I was stuck homeless and without the one damn thing I needed to eat with country folks can live on the land, then spent 60 days in jail for telling her I would kill myself if she didn't at least talk to me and tell me what the hell happened now I can't go within 300yrds of her my three girls or my three grandkids and for what reason I only know is my brother was pissed and drunk and wanted weed. So Christal (Gore) Smith is the only woman I have ever known to love and have never even had to ask another out so don't really know how and now my family turned their backs on me because I wouldn't give up on my marriage and she wants a divorce I won't give up on her but for over a year and I don't really know what to do or say. So yes I have asked for a few pics trying to see if there is a fantasy woman that would make me forget the love of my life and you know that not a one sent a pic and that's cool but I am still here wanting her and I am still homeless. This is as honest as it gets an I am not too sure how much longer I can push before I give up just like everyone has on me, email me if you have any advice please or if you can help me get her back pointlesslife@gmail.com my name is Chris