i am looking for my queen.the one woman that i can love,honor,cherish,trust.the one i would lay my own life down for.the one that will make me her king and not put anyone or any thing above me and will fill the same for me as i do her. and yes i do believe a lot of what i read and am told in a lot of ways i guess that is fault for me just like me being forgiving and having a big heart only bad thing about that is there has been walls built around it. they can be took down but it will take a woman that really loves and cares for me to do that. and she will have to be different than all the others that have messed me over and hurt me. i know that she is out there were i dont really know but i have an idea ill just have to wait and see and if its her she will be loved unlike she ever has......... and one day she will take her throne right next to me as my queen..

here is a quote i saw and liked: "men are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most women don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right woman to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."

this can go both ways for men and woman you know but i ask what is wrong with me.are you willing to climb the tree to get me and trae down my walls or is the risk to great to show me any thing.........?????????

be for you ask ill tell you about my lil girl i hate having to retell it: well i had just gotten laid off a construction job and was at home i got to spend a few weeks with her b4 she passed.well anyways she was very sick the doctor said it was colic and he didnt even see her and called in the prescription for her. me and my ex wife didnt know better so we agreed and went and picked it up but it didnt do any good she still cried all the time. well one night my ex went to bed b4 me amber was asleep finally well i stayed up for a bit then went to bed but b4 i did i went and checked on her she was fine. the next day i got at 7:00 and all was quiet so i figured i sleep a lil longer well i awoke again at 8:00 and it was still quiet that just didnt seem right u know so i went to check on her and she was as cold as ice i picked her up ran out side she was gone i hollered for the ex she got up i handed amber to her then went and called 911 i was trying to tell her how to do cpr but i knew how so i handed the phone to her and started it well in time i finally felt her take air in to her lunges it was them opening up u know like they were deflated. well about 1 hr later the paramedic got there they said oh she still warm trying to make it seem like she had a chance but i knew better my baby girl was gone . she had several birth defects the doc. had over look when she was born id tell them to you but i cant spell them all she was just very sick they ruled it SIDS -i guess to cover the piece of shit doctors ass u know