I wrote this this morning after the fight or whatever you want to call it. I had to stop because I was getting too upset thinking of all the things that has happened.
You say that you love me
But it really doesn’t show
You treat me very badly
This I really know
What you call love is very confusing
I wouldn’t want to see hate
Because the way you love
Isn’t the way you should treat your mate
You talk to me like I’m a dog
You always treat me like shit
You say you are better then the one before
I don’t see how, you also hit
How can you hit the one you love?
Just because you get mad
That’s not the way it’s supposed to be
This isn’t what I thought we had
You didn’t do this in the beginning
And you knew the trouble I had in the past
You told me you would never do that
But now I see your words don’t last
This isn’t what I wanted to happen
You aren’t the person that you were once before
You do the things you say you would never do
I know the time is coming for me to walk out the door
Every time we argue
You say that if I do things your way
That everything will be better
But you start a fight every day!
I don’t know if you get off by fighting
But it’s tearing me apart
Look deep into my eyes
And you’ll see the pieces of my heart
You don’t care about anyone but yourself
You are the only one
You say this is love
If it is, then I am done!
I didn’t do anything to you
But yet you raise your fists
You punch me and then you feel better
All you ever are is pissed
You are mad at the world
And you take it out on me
I am not going to be your punching bag
And soon this you will see
I keep telling myself that it can work
That if you wouldn’t get mad
And do the things you do
We could get back to what we had
I am fooling myself
You got by with it more times then one
Because this will never change
And you want me to choose you over my son?
You say that you are supposed to come before him
This will never happen, he is a part of me
He is the number one in my life
And he always will be
I don’t know if you get off
By the things you do
You treat me like shit
And you know its true!
But I keep staying, thinking it will be better
But deep down I already know
You are an abuser, both mentally and physical
But when people are around you put on a show
You want me to act all happy
Like nothing is wrong
But hurting deep inside
For way too long
When this first happened
You should have never gotten the second chance
I should have left your sorry ass
Without even a second glance
But I thought about it and gave you another try
And it happens again and again
With all the apologies you say
They don’t mean anything
If you were a real man
You wouldn’t ever put your hands on your wife
You have excuse after excuse
You will make up excuses for the rest of your life
They say you don’t know what you have until it is gone
Maybe then you will understand and see
The things you do and say
And what they have done to me
You are abusive to me
Just like the marriage before
You put your hands on me in anger
I should walk out the door
All the words and promises you say
Are all lies and you are full of shit
This is tearing me apart, deep inside
I don’t understand why you hit
Does it make you feel better?
Does it make you feel like a man?
To be controlling over someone
I don’t understand how it can
You lift your hand to the one you love
I don’t think you know what love is
I know for sure this isn’t it!
This is what misery is
You don’t know how to love
And I believe this is true
If you did you wouldn’t fight or hit
And say the things you do
