'Progress for the sake of progress must be discouraged!''
So, it always seems that I can never move forward, in my case, progress for the sake of progress is just not a reality,BUT, shit happens right? meh, No...
I don't think i'm ment to be happy.
But what keep sme pissed off, is the fact that you all are happy...
Like my ex-wife stephanie, she got the family she wanted...
a new husband...
a new child...
Our child...
living in the state she always wanted...
Why, why you. why can you be allowed to be happy and not be...
why did you get a second chance at love and marriege and not me...
why did i get my hopes up and have yet other person just like you hurt me...
why why, why fuckin' why!!
Or the last person...
Mary, the most beautiful person I know, poisined with lies, hurt, free, anger...
But why is she allowed to move on hurt free, why does she get to have this new fling of her, why is she the ones with the friends so pleased that i'm gone, yet the same people who smiled through they'ree fuckin' teeth at me, why does she get a new dude to fall over, why does she get to hate me and act like i'm dead now, why does she get a second chance happiness, all because she now hates me and am not apart of her life. why does mary desearve it...
why why fuckin why!
And why do any of you fuckin get to happy, huh?!
and the second i AM HAPPY!
the time i am happy, you stupid, jelious, bitter, annoying fucks, ruin it for me, you say you helped me? hmm? then where the fuck where you praising me and mary huh!?
where was YOUR happiness and lame excuse for help when I loved mary huh!?!?
Like what? lance isn't lance when i loved her!!?!?!
fuck you, don't invite us togetehr, talk shit about us dating when we're not around, Make me feel like some fucked up friend for dating her!?
fuck you, that " bitch" you couldn't stand, the "whore" you hated...
half the fuckin fights we had was about you fucks. you ingnorent fucks, she begged me to hang out with you phony friends, she cried to see how lonely i was, but you couldn't except us! so fuck your help....
So i hope my loses, hurt, pain, lonlyness and and future was worth it, i hope you fucks are happy, becuase when you childish cock smokes are happy, i'll be sure to stay the fuck out of it, like i wish you would have done, fuckin cunt slops!
