Tears have flowed down my face
I have gone through my share of pain
All I see when I look inside of me is emptiness
I have nothing to say to that
except for one thing
I don’t want to be understood by someone as shallow as you
There have been many times when
I just looked away from your gaze
Those eyes that have never seen pain in its cruelest form
The window through hopes and dreams have never flown away
I know I am crumbling before your eyes
I can see the sympathy written in your face
I don’t need that
not now
I am still going strong
Today I’ll just make it alone and maybe you’ll stop trying
No matter how close you are
I would never let you into my world
I have laughed and heard my heart breaking inside
I have smiled and saw it break in so many places
I have lied time and time again saying that I am getting better
Yet the truth still stands
I am just getting worse and I don’t need help
I know that it would be great to have a friend
Someone you can depend upon
day or night
But I haven’t found someone who would really understand
And care behind their plastic smile and empty eyes that say nothing
There have been too many tears shed today
Too many awful lies to hide away that pain
You would never care though
all you want is the comfort of a friend
Not someone who can sit with me and cry
just someone who barely
Knows what it feels to lose
fall and get up
only to be pushed again
So take away those smiles and words so falsely uttered
I don’t need that feel of something that isn’t there after all
So wipe away those “I understand” s and “It‘s okay” s
Because it isn’t and it’s been a long time since I accepted the truth
