I tried to have a video convo with my ex... Today... I broke down bawling ... Its the first time I've seen him since he broke my heart 2 and a half months ago ...I miss him real bad... He told me today that he has a new g.f I told him to be careful with her heart and he said he would be... Hurts so much that he had to destroy mine to figure out how to treat a girl... I didnt think I would react so badly...
He is coming to get his winter coat on Fri and I told him I cant meet his new g.f I wont be able to paint on a happy face and shake hands with the girl who is getting the him I had to have my heart broken for him to find. I tell you if i didnt have my son to care for I wouldnt be around to write this note... I hurt so much I cried so hard I just wanna hug him and tell him I love him still... But I dont wanna get hurt again... So I wont... I will just die miserably inside... Knowing that some girl is getting the him I wanted... While I got the lying decietful guy... *tears*
Alas I guess my heart will never be in one piece everytime I pick it up and put it together adn hand it to someone they smash it again...
*sobbing*
