I know i cant do anything right. I give up. I was tryin to open my ports up and it didnt happen...Or it may have who knows. I asked my mother for the last week to get back there and open them. She was always far to busy to do anything i asked her to do. She always is. We typicaly have a pretty good realtionship aslong as we don't ask eachother to do something.Part of me gets upsept cuz i really don't ask her to do a whole lot...When i do shes always to busy or she has things she has to do. She asks me to do something i either have to drop what i'm doing or be in the middle of dying and that has not stopped it before. So...I guess i should do what i planned on doing...Getting a loan and moving into the Dorms. I can't deal with the stress in the house anymore. My dad and moms always going at it. My mothers always upset at me...I don't think a day goes by i do something right for anyone ...seriously wow..yea..geez :( I've been good tho..the stress of a new job..my back hurting like it does...Oh well..Now i say i want to move into the dorms that will be an issue because i cant take a dog and of course then my mother has to say something like well her life is dealin with the dogs then she guesses and "f this and f that and Whatever" So.........anyways........I know my cousin thinks im stupid..he was helping me do the port thing..but i told her i said please call..She was busy she had to smoke a ciggerette..........anyways..
