Suck My Aura's blog: "x"

I just don't care much about websites I've joined, or anything like that. I dunno. I play a lot of games. But as far as talking to people online, or even IRL for that matter, I've been staying away from it.

to the wind, and the rain, and the glorious fame.

my empire of dirt.

I find it kinda sad. The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had

Son of a fuck. I hate moving. Especially when I hadn't planned on doing so.

....when your life feels like a perpetual dream or nightmare? Every day is surreal, and time has taken off to some parallel reality along with consequence and social morality? Hmmmmm. Maybe not everyone feels that way. Haha.

...while i dream. while i sleep.

I'm walking down in the basement I'm leaning on the washing machine I'm reaching back through a hole in the wall's insulation I'm pulling out a bottle of vodka Replacing that with a pint of Jim Beam I'm lying down on the floor until I feel better It's morning and I pour myself coffee I drink it til the kitchen stops shaking I'm backing out of the driveway And into creation And the loving spirit that follows me Watching helplessly, will always forgive me Oh, I want to die alone With my sympathy beside me I want to bring down all those demons who drank with me Feasting bleed through me On my desperation I hide all the bottles in places They find and confront me with pain in their eyes And I promise that I'll make some changes But reaching back it occurs to me There will always be some kind of crisis for me Oh, I want to die alone With my sympathy beside me I want to bring back all those moments they stole from me In my reverie Darkening days end Oh, I want to die alone With my memories inside me I want to live that life When I could say people had faith in me I still see that guy in my memory Oh, I want to die alone With my sympathy beside me I want to bring down all those people who drank with me Watching happily My humiliation