Jadaira Fiesta Tappers member's blog: "WTF is wrong with me?"

So I'm sitting here tonight wondering why people still act like they are in high school. I still get chat invites to a place I used to go and when I get in there I get griped at or ignored. We are all parents here. What's the deal with people copying and pasting things you say and trying to read into it? Why cause drama where there isn't any? Then people have the nerve to say "Who keeps inviting her in here?" I must be stubborn because I refuse to leave. I have my own views and opinions on things and I'm not going to be run out of a place that I still have some friends just because a few people want to be assholes. They need to grow the fuck up. I refuse to back down what I believe in just because some idiots want to jump on the bandwagon and go with the flow. I try not to cause problems where ever I go but I will NOT be bullied by anyone. I dealt with that shit from my mom and my ex husband and I refuse to do it ever again. If you don't like the way I think you can kiss my ass. I'm a grown woman and if you think that calling me white trash or any other name is going to piss me off and make me leave you are dead fucking wrong. I am about to change my yahoo name just so I don't have to worry about getting invited to chat anymore. I don't need the stress or the fucking drama.

I will try to keep this short and sweet, but I am wondering what the hell is wrong with me. For the last 2 1/2 years I have been dealing with kidney problems. At first everyone including my doctors were thinking the stones were being caused by my pregnancies. Now I'm 8 months post and still having severe kidney pain to the point I still need Percocet once or twice a week, which I hate taking!! Now we see there are no stones in there and the docs are looking at me like I'm faking it. I'm bitching at them to do more tests and to find out wtf is wrong and they still look at me stupid. So am I wrong to keep pestering them and demanding answers or should I just go to the damn ER every time the pain gets so bad I pass out? I mean you can't fake this kind of pain. When you are throwing up and passing out how the hell can you fake it? Anyone have any ideas why a 26 year old female would have severe left flank pain that is mimicking kidney stone pain? I'd really like to know because it radiates all the way around to my ribcage. I have 2 babies to take care of I can't be dealing with this kind of pain all the time. I'm at the end of my rope here folks. Ok I'm done bitching now. Thanks for listening.