Doesn't it feel like there is always one song that describes exactly what you're going through, and all you want to do is play it over and over? Lately I've discovered that the song "Wrong Again" is perfect for what I'm going through. Its unbelievably exact. Everything that was wrong in my life, he was there for me, and I choose to give up my life to share it with his, I was so sure of his lies. I was told that when he pushed me away it was because he was scared of finally finding happiness, and like an idiot I believed, at one point he'd told me that things always end up bad when he finds happiness. I was so wrong, this wasn't my prince charming after all. As soon as I got pregnant with his baby, its like i have some horrible disease. His stupid friends from online talk crap bout me on here, and he does nothing. It hurts so bad to see the person you love mistreat you, all because you have nowhere to go anymore, because if you leave, then you know you've really lost the battle. I love his kids just as if they were mine, and they love me too, but thats not important to him. All that matters to him is being able to flirt with someone new every week, and getting drunk. I keep praying that things will change, for our baby. That at least he'll want to if not for me just for our baby, but something in my heart tells me, that he really meant what he said when he just said,"I never really loved you" I'd still take a bullet for him, in a heartbeat. I just wish that he'd see that I really do love him, with all my heart, I still want us to be us, the way we used to be. If only his so called friends hadn't been there to talk so much crap, maybe things would be different. For now all I have to look forward to is my unborn child. Whether he chooses to be a part of it or not his family will always be able to see my baby. But as far as love goes, I guess I was wrong again. Not only have I messed up my life, but now I've brought a baby into the picture, a baby who is not at fault. A baby who whether he likes it or not, is also his child. So yes Chris, there are weeks, and there are days, I am grown up, I've accepted that we created something special, you should grow up and do the same.
From the day we met
You made me forget
All my fears
Knew just what to say
And you kissed away
All my tears
I knew this time I had finally found
Someone to build my life around
Be a lover and a friend
After all my heart had put me through
I knew that it was safe with you
And what we had would never end
Wrong again
Everybody swore
They�d seen this before
We�d be fine
And you�d come to see that you still loved me
In good time
And they said there�s nothing you can do
It�s something that he�s going through
It happens to a lot of men
And I told myself that they were right
That you�d wake up and see the light
And I just had to wait �til then
Wrong again
And it seemed to me the pain would last
My chance for happiness had passed
And nothing waited �round the bend
I was sure I�d never find someone
To heal the damage you had done
And my poor heart would never mend
Wrong again
Wrong again
