no god damn gf for a fuckin while now.... still have feelings for the bitch of an ex i shouldnt mainly bc i dont have anyone to share any feelings with so i just dwell fuck life sux right now!!! tryin to get into trucking have zero fuckin money tryin to sell shit but its not workin in my favor.... the only car i had to drive is not reg any more..... and i dont have tho money to bring it current and smog the fucker!!! dads stressed bc my mom goes in for surgery!!!!! my lil bro goes in for surgery.... wtf kind of xmas is this!!!! last year my fucking gma dies then my great gpa..... we have to pay for 3 fuckin houses bc the rest of my family slacks on fuckin payments.... i have no fucking job at the moment so i just spent my last 20 to get my dad to work!!!! THIS IS FUCKED!!!!!! my chevy is fuckin knockin so i cant drive it, i just baught a god damn carb for it... and now i have to swap the motors.... yet in the background when ever i try to do anything constructive my dad just sees it as a waist of time!!!!! so he shoots my ideas and fuckin dreams down.... i just dont know wtf to do anymore im goin fuckin crazy!!!!! i dont even have money to buy a fuckin beer to calm my fuckin nerves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck if this is how life is wow just fucking wow i better have a fucking AMAZING future ahead of my with all of these god damn hurdles i have to fucking go through
