cheri's blog: "wow its about time"

i wanted to write a note to everyone and explane where i been my house burnt to the ground and i lost everything, this next week ill be moveing into my new home not what i wanted but oh well ill make due with it so beware ill beback soon to bother yall again so bear with me much love cheri

For all those times you stood by me For all the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true For all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby You're the one who held me up Never let me fall You're the one who saw me through through it all You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You gave me wings and made me fly You touched my hand I could touch the sky I lost my faith, you gave it back to me You said no star was out of reach You stood by me and I stood tall I had your love I had it all I'm grateful for each day you gave me Maybe I don't know that much But I know this much is true I was blessed because I was loved by you You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You were always there for me The tender wind that carried me A light in the dark shining your love into my life You've been my inspiration Through the lies you were the truth My world is a better place because of you You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me I'm everything I am Because you loved me

My love, Are you still mine? 'Cause there are many... Fantasy thoughts going through my head, As all I do is think of you... As I've hungered, For your loving burning touch, As I need your love so badly, Now till the end of time, I am waiting for you with open arms To embrace you with wings of love, To hold you deep within my soul, To kiss you without control. Just being near you, And be able to behold your touch, Takes me to another dimension, But, time just moving so slowly, To feel the heat of your passions. I do want you to know... I will always love you, That you are all I have ever long for, And crave, and yearn... That you are the man of my dreams, The one I have searched all my life, That every day, more and more, I'm falling deeply in love with you! Oh to find this and be able to say this is all i want hugz cher

I just want to be with somebody who WANTS to be with me Is that too much to ask for? Somebody who is willing to put as much into a relationship as I am. Maybe I want a whirlwind romance. Someone who will sweep me off my feet. Someone who realises how precious life is and how fleeting it can be. Someone who will take advantage of every moment they have to be near me. Someone who is as crazy about me as I am about them.I just feel so hopeless. Like it can never happen for me. I look around me, and at people I have known in the past. I see so many people who don't even seem to realise what they have. Drugged out crackwhores who are married with families that they dont even care about. (admittedly, they are not too discerning and would settle for anyone, which eases my mind a bit to know that I am not just so messed up that nobody would want to be with me.) I see the workaholics, whose values are so askew that they believe that love equals money. Families falling apart because they quarrel over whether to buy a new boat or a new car. Families falling apart over trivial things. People who have families and a dinner table waiting for them at home, who instead- call to say they are working late and choose to cheat on not just their significant other, but to cheat their family out of a whole-ness that their being there creates. Ultimately hurting everyone that truly cares about them. Because if you really think about it, anyone that would help someone cheat on their s/o has corrupted morals and does not care about anyone or anything. Knowing that there are children out there who wait all day for mommy or daddy to come home, only to be disappointed by the phone call that they will be late. The children are doubly let down because they are cheated out of seeing their loved one before they sleep that night and they have to deal with the parent that IS at home being upset. So many people are married with families that they do not value. But why cant I have that? Marriage and a family is what I want more than anything else in this world. Yet it seems so unattainable. I fail to understand where I am continually going wrong. I take a long hard look at myself and I see the potential within. The values and character traits I possess are not reliant on what car I do or dont drive. The high salary job that I do or dont have. or my social circle of influential friends. Or lack thereof. I am a loving and caring committed individual. I highly value the family aspect of life. I would do anything for those that I care about. Even die. I want to be with a person who places their values in the same areas of life that I do. I want to be with a person who deserves me. Someone who is honest with me due to the simple fact that I will be honest with them. Someone who treats me right. Someone who doesnt look at being with me as a burden, but a privledge. Someone who can take me as I am. I am a person, I am not perfect. I have faults. I am insecure, I am scared. I require positive affirmation. I need to know that I am cared about. That I am valued. That I am loved for who I am. In ways I am very strong. In myself I tend to be very weak. I know that I could accomplish many great things on my own. But the one thing I want more than anything in this world, is something that I cannot make for myself. I cannot force anyone to love me. I cannot make anyone want to be with me, let alone marry me. I am currently looking for a glimmer of hope that marriage is something that I might one day attain. I understand that many people probably dont see a reason to "rush" anything, But I am coming to grips with the fact that life is a very fragile thing. And that nobody is guaranteed the promise of tomorrow. It is completely outside of our control. I wish that I could just help others to understand this simple fact of life, but unfortunately- we each have to come to terms with it in our own way. I am just happy that I finally understand what has been gnawing at me for so long. The thing that I suconsciously knew, but was just at the edge of my mind. Too hazy to really get a grip on. Todays lesson- mortality- the sooner you understand it, the longer you have to enjoy the rest of your life.

im so fucking tired of ppl thinking that just cuz someone looks good that they have no fucking heart. all they care about is whats showing on the outside my heart is the best part of who i am ya i may be pretty but so what even at 44 i look good but if ppl took the time to know me they would know im so much more then a good looking woman . and the true men i know are beautiful on the inside and they truly hate being labled as just a peice of meat when u find love yall look at the persons heart because when u see the heart of a person no matter how beautiful the outside is the tru heart wont let u down. dont judge by whats on the outside because sometimes its so ugly on the inside. why cant ppl just be happy for ppl in love why do they want to distroy happiness and rune it out of not haveing what someone else has i just dont get it. im not a lil gurl out playing lil gurl games im a woman who demands special care so if u arnt real dont even talk to me fake ppl wont last in my life, i love all my friends much love cher

His hands of friendship Warmly clasped to mine; Tenderly holding them To say things will be okay. His patience brings comfort He knows my fears won't go away He understands my loneliness For he's been there that way. He shields me from my foes To whom I thought were angels He gathers me in his arms So no one inflicts me further harm. He gently briefs a warning Of this tricky trusting deed And hates to think how others Infused their loath and wrath. I love his gentle ways; Calm in manner and retreat. His eyes are locked to mine So I may listen to his heart. His hands stretch forth and seal A friendship everlasting. Our spirit of bonded acceptance With joy, we'll love and dance.

I love you more and more with each day passing. And it eases me to know that as tomorrow approaches, that I will love you more than yesterday and tomorrow will be more than today. My love for you cannot be measured by words alone as "love" does not fully express my true feelings for you. When I think of our love it reminds me of the miracles of life that only God can produce. Like the beautiful sunsets and sounds of Mother Nature that soothe our hearts and remind us of something bigger than we can imagine, where two hearts can intertwine and become one. Like two birds in love that fly in harmony and appear to dance with the grace of Gene Kelly and the innocence of a child. You and only you have given me so much hope and have made me realize the true meaning of life. The true meaning of how a woman should treat a man and the true wonders of why we are here. please accept my heart as your own and listen to the rhythm of two hearts beating as one. This is my will and my reason to live, for without you I would crumble to dust. I now know that dreams of that one true soul mate are truly real and until now were only a fairy tale. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to realize that not only is there a God, but he works in so many beautiful ways.

if my friends want one of my pic decated to um send a note with a link and ill do it hugz to yall cher

i have not been on a lot latly as i been haveing some medical problems within my family no i havent left im here if you write to me ill get back with ya..things just been really crazy. i do miss yall. alot so if you stop by to say hi ill hit ya back i promise. when i check in,i love ya all and hope to talk soon cher

Share with me your feelings above, Embrace the facts of heaven sent love. Share the warmth of the nature Of us and of future. The climate changes when you are around, From darkend skies to that of light abound. Sing to me of your love, or it's lack So that one day it will be sung back. Perfect are the days gone by, But with out you they longer lie. Quell the fear inside your heart Entangle the conscience choice apart. Share with me the choice of fact That we can not abandon and crack The love of which is being shown Of how much short time we have grown. Of this I can say one thing We have rendered ourselves to love's claim Joining is a simple choice to make That of which we can not fake Alas, the fear overrides Both with out doubt and lies Do I see what future holds. So I sit and wait to unfold, Greet me now, with your reaching arms. Let me swoon you with unravering charm. Bring us together. Not now or ever Will I embark on a different quest For you will always be my guest Settle with me, that one day is here Settle with me, with out a care Tie the knot, slip it on, Let me steal a kiss from You and make everything... Perfect