How do you explain to a four year old child that the only reason you havent seen him since he was six months old is that his whore of a mother had kept him from you?
How do you explain to a four year old that his mother uses him as a bargining chip, tell you "Yeah you can talk to your son but I want money first."
How do you explain that its not that his daddy doesnt love him with everything he is, simply that he has had no choice in the matter?
These are the questions I asked myself tonight after crying. My step mother called me tonight and says. "Your son has been noticing all the other kids being picked up by their fathers at day care and he is starting to ask where his daddy is."
How so you explain to that little boy that his mother uses his daddy's family against him to get what she wants. That she uses men like a credit card to get what she's after?
I am so lost right now. Dying inside because ive tried so hard to reach out and make contact with him. But the only time his mother allows me to talk to him is when she wants something from me. How do you tell him that its not daddy's fault, its the simple fact that his mother is a gold diggin whore and is only intrested in what can be given to her.
How am I supposed to hold myself togather when its been so long between phone calls that ive reserved myself to that fact that I wont see him again until his 18 and showing up on my doorstep asking what the fuck happened. Then out of the blue his mother gets a wild hair up her ass and actully wants you to talk to him.
She has used this scam on me so many damn times. I just dont know what to do anymore. Ive cried so many nights. I hurt everyday because of the situation. I feel like I have to hold myself to keep my heart from falling out of my chest and smashing to peices on the floor.
So if anyone can asnwer any of those questions please let me know, because it might be nice to have some answers about this situation for once. As it stands im lost in the darkness without a light.
