Maylin's blog: "Words of a Phantom (poetry)"

Where have you been? For years I sought, Helpless, Hopeless, Carefully yielding to the thoughts let astray The numbing ache lingers, Remnants of a life I left behind Only a striking gaze, A gentle caress, Can only bring me back from the dead. Only my shadows reflect what remains. Help me.. Save me.. Guide me back to the light.

There's no life within this hollow shell. Care to take a look? No heart beats for you. Not a thought trickles of the untrue. You never changed me No matter how much you despised what you saw. Mental distortion was always there, With or without you. I'll still stand strong. I'll still kick your memory to the curb, Kicking with these steel-toed boots. There's the new chapter in my life Getting back on my feet, Headed in a new direction With no regrets. Now I change for no one To make myself happy Not you. Not anyone. Yeah, I still care But not for you.

A starless night Windswept into oblivion Is this death? Numbing within my body Within my soul, This desolate place is merely my home. Through nonexistent comfort I weep, I wait for the time where nothing lives. Not a breath. Not a heartbeat. This is where my heart lies. In solitude I sleep Without the joy or happiness I deserve. Don't follow Unless you choose the dark. Choose me. There's no light in here..

Violate me. Taste this innocence which you crave. You want it. You need it Until your dying breath Desecrate me. Burn your scalding stare into my flesh. Can you feel it? Can you taste it? This doesn't get any better. Penetrate me. Bleed into my pumping veins. I live for it. I die for it. Immortalize my soul..

This is the last time That I cry those tears of anguish. That I wallow int he halls of your memory. Let me open the windows. Feel the breeze. Air out the mess you left behind. This is the last time That I die a little on the inside. That I guard myself from my feelings. Soar those wings. Angel wings. To liberate the wounded within. This is the last time That I forget how to learn to trust. That I remember what matters to me. Do or die? I'll always try. This bird will fly cage-free.

A single shot rings out Sending this heart in its downward spiral Suffocating my lungs In pain. In silence. Death's grip My only solace from within Begs me to return Only to yearn Time and time again. In peace. In desolation. In my own destruction, Only a silver of light awaits. The hope. I wait.

Uncertainty rings clear. True blue. Instinct kicks in. What is your motive You, whose stealth is beyond the radar? Are you sincere? Are you sinister? To trust is to be ignorant For the untold stories you carry Will only burden. Are you dying? Are you delusional? For pain upholds the sanity Throughout the end of time. There is no logic to your faults Only mere dissipation of your innocence. Let the pure judge your skin See how long before your flesh rips apart. Stripped of your soul Bare to the world As you've always been.

I salivate for your hands. Their gentle caress Exploring every crevasse Of my body in ecstasy. I crave for your gaze. Those gentle, yet intense eyes Burning into my soul An imprint of your very presence. I hunger for your body; The mountain of granite Lusting to become whole In a realm yet complete

Going a hundred miles an hour. Scattered thoughts Mismatched a quilt from ages past Part the cobwebs To let me out. To set me free. Have it linger From end to beginning. That's where I'll be. Maybe one day I'll let you in So we can dream together Carelessly, eternally.

Sitting on a stair Waiting for your presence As the clouds pass by. More than just an echo in my mind. Will you come? This impatience stings like poison, Burning in my breath. In my soul. Encompass me with your passion, For our fate is written From obscurity. Abnormality. It is certain From my heart's curtain.