I wonder about allot of things, things like if you love someone so much, why do you treat them the way you treated me?
After I got this job, the only thing that made me make it through the day was knowing I got to talk to you that night. Us making plans about me coming out east forever... But I guess that was for nothing...
Still to this day I replay your voice, look and even the setting of us in your bed talking, and you saying "baby your the best thing to ever happen to me, and your the best Ive ever had"...
What happened, why did you "loose your mind"? like you told me? If you wanted our relationship to end then it should of ended then...
I still picture your face at the airport the day I was leaving... You crying and telling me I had 1 year to be back to you in your arms forever...
Well that has all changed hasn't it?
I noticed in your email to me today that you must of taken his last name. I remember the notes (that you threw out) of you writing my last name with yours and a "FOREVER" beside it..
You hurt me... no more like devastated me.. Ive never felt so insignificant, or worthless ever in my lie, and my life has been pretty shitty loosing both my parents like I did...
Never in my life did I ever expect someone to ruin me like you did.. Ive been through allot of shit and always came through, but this will haunt me forever...
Your uncle whom you love so dearly offered me a job that night we "went for a drive", and your Dad (god love him) your Dad telling me I was the best thing to ever happen to you...
I'm at a loss of why things happened like they did, and it huts... It really does... What hurts the most is the fact that everything everyday reminds me of you.. Your a constant thought in my brain 24/7...
