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I am just a country girl that loves taking care of those around me I am very honest and faithful to the one I am with.
I have a few bad habits that include putting others before myself and a lot of times that causes problems. Family is very important to me rather it be my real blood family or my family by choice. I listen to all music but Country music and Native music are what I listen to the most.I joined Cherry Tap/Fubar to meet new friends and to bring some of my friends from other programs here with me.I loves wolves and have a kindred spirit with them they are my guide and protector.If you want to know more about me just ask.




This is a little something I wrote last month while I was down and just thought someone might like it.



Feeling's

As I sit here I am trying to figure out what my purpose in this life is supposed to be, not sure if I am meant to be happy and if so when will it happen?

I feel as if I am facing this life on my own I seem to be going down a lonely road alone, just as I have since I was a child feeling as if I don't belong.

I wish I had someone that I could turn to when the darkness consumes me, but yet again I face the darkness alone just as I always have.

I give everything in my life my all but yet it never seems to be enough, am I being punished for something I don't remember doing?

I keep trying to do better but I just can't seem to do what needs done, I either say or do something wrong which causes even more problems.

I know where I can go for unconditional love and I have always poured my heart out to them because there is no one else.

I don't know how much I have left to give to those that don't care and just want to keep taking, but I feel as if I am empty inside.

Everything inside of me feels like it is broken and to just give up and never come back from the darkness just to have it all happen again.

I don't need people to act like they care when we both know it is a lie and that you would rather see me destroyed.

How can I keep going when all I want is for the darkness to take me so that maybe then the pain that consumes me day after day ends.

All I need is for one person to show me that all I do and say is not wrong and that I am not poison to those around me.