Tony Montana225's blog: ""WITHOUT LOVE AND DYING HERE!!!!!"

After a MUCH Needed Break from Fu-Ville, I Took a break from Life also. To take inventory of My PURPOSE Here,

The Family and Friends I've met and made here, and the S-N-A-K-E-S In The Garden. A friend told me before I left,

I'll be here when you come back,and I H-O-P-E You find what You're looking for. It was a VERY S-W-E-E-T Thing to say,

BUT T-R-U-T-H-F-U-L-L-Y,All I've ever looked for here is T-R-U-E E-Q-U-A-L-I-T-Y. The VERY SAME Equality I Thought

I had with M-O-S-T of You here. I'm GLAD TO Say, I've still have Friends and Fam. From My First Day Here and That's WONDERFUL.

But Now It's empty Friend Requests, The Endless,"Help Me, Help Me,I Need,I Need!!!" and The Backdoor R-A-C-I-S-M That Occurs

Here. Grown People(esp. Those In Their 30's and up) SHOULDN'T Be A-S-H-A-M-E-D Of The Friends and Family They Find and

The People They REALLY Like. To be told You can't Leave a Propfile comment or "poke" them Basically because of who You are,

in relation to Their Other Friends IS  AS C-O-W-A-R-D-L-Y An Act as One Can commit. To Treat Good, well-meaning People like

trash for Things(bling) THAT DOESN'T EXIST REALLY R-E-V-E-A-L-S What kind of People You A-R-E In R-E-A-L L-I-F-E,where You're

the one BEING S-L-I-G-H-T-E-D. Even if We A-R-E-N'T Personal Friends, The average Person wouldn't be UPSET if I Called out the racists

that ARE HERE If You WEREN'T O-N-E Of Them. To Block Someone That Says what They see being done,I liken to TRUE Inequality. Just shut up

about it and take(The Scraps) of Friendship I Give You. Where's The LOVE In That? Why Would A-N-Y-O-N-E Want to be In a place, around

"People" who W-I-L-L-F-U-L-L-Y, D-E-S-P-I-T-E-F-U-L-L-Y Use and Abuse The H-E-A-R-T-S Of Decent People. Look at the way We C-E-L-E-B-R-A-T-E

A-L-L Things P-E-R-V-E-R-T-E-D AND E-V-I-L. If That's the way You C-H-O-O-S-E TO L-I-V-E,That's Fine With Me,or If You C-H-O-O-S-E A Gay lifestyle,That's Between You and GOD. I D-O-N'T Come on Brow-beating People With THE WORD, I Just TRY TO Bring P-E-A-C-E AND L-O-V-E To Those WHO W-A-N-T AND N-E-E-D These E-L-E-M-E-N-T-S To Their Lives. I D-I-D-N-'T Have a CHOICE Of What My Skin Color was going to be,or

what Family I BORN Into. I came to Fubar To be A H-E-L-P To A-N-Y-O-N-E To reached out to me,and I've Found Some of the MOST Wonderful People They're ARE In This L-I-F-E And I L-O-V-E Them D-E-A-R-L-Y AND Won't Let some Backwood Cowards take the joy of what I do Here.

By the way, Celebrating Americian Holidays D-O-E-S-N'T make You Americian,Just Like Celebrating CHRISTMAS AND EASTER D-O-E-S-N'T Make You A CHRISTIAN. So, can We Still Call Ourselves GOD'S Children???

A-L-W-A-Y-S IN PEACE AND L-O-V-E,....

Usually i try to be positive and cheerful to you here in fuville cuz EVERYONE deserves a chance but this is ridiculous.

I'm NOT worried about losing friends because it. seems I HAVE NONE.You know people talk about love and wanting and needing it.but if you DON'T KNOW LOVE,this is what happens.Too MANY folks here want to abuse and misuse people and their feelings.WHY??? IT DOESN'T MATTER TO YOU IF SOMEONE COUD USE YOUR SUPPORT FOR A CHANGE??? NAH,CUZ YOU'RE A-L-L ABOUT YOU!!! why even bother fooling with decent people??? cuz you can?

FOR YOU WHO LAUGH AND SCOFF AT THIS,remember you have a life too.You have a life that can be turned up-side down at ANY GIVEN moment.you'll be the one in the end on your ass with no one to be there for your evil ass.what's so great about being evil???If you like to hurt others,you'll be hurting FOR ETERNITY.why ask other's to rate you,fan you and do this and that for you when you know you won't be decent to them in kind.CUZ YOU'RE A SOULLESS BASTARD WITH NO MORALS AND UP-BRINGING. i and other's rate you everyday and can't get bombed or rated or anything else cuz YOU'RE ALL ABOUT YOU.

IN CLOSING,i heard the best thing about loving yourself so much is,YOU'LL BE LEFT BY YOURSELF!!!!!"

MUCH LOVE TO THE MONTANALAND225 FAMILY(AND SO CALLED)FRIENDS.if i lose you as a family or friend,you NEVER WERE MY FRIEND ANYWAY,THIS IS THE WAY I CHOOSE TO SEIZE THE DAY FUVILLE;I'M ON STRIKE TIL I GET TREATED DECENTLY,I'M O-U-T!!!!!

Good Morning Fuvillei've discovered some things about you that leaves me dismayed abut the future here.I wish i was talking about some chilldish immaturity and i wish it  soooo prevelant here. i'm talking about Hate. The kind that rains division and alienates good people from A-L-L people.It's One thing to beg,But to be mean to people who haven't done you a thing,WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE? That's far beyond ANYTHING resembling humane decentcy.

                          WHY?,and for what? what PURPOSE does it serve? Oh,I know, TO"SERVE"Satan,ha,ha,ha,ha,ha!!!!! Well,FOR A-L-L of you who call yourselves vampires and wolves and other assorted demons"SATAN DOESN'T CARE!!!!!"Nor does he care about you,your dreams and other"self-stryled fantasties you may be dreaming of.A-L-L he wants is to destroy you,your hope and you life and see you get ready for the hell he himself will join you in.

           THERE ARE WAY TOO MANY PEOPLE WHO COME HERE JUST TO HAVE FUN AND MEET NEW PEOPLE FOR IGNORANT IDIOTS TO CRAP IT UP FOR EVRYONE ELSE.I'm sure there Plenty of sites with plenty of folks who live and think like youeselves,THIS IS THE INTERNET,Find them and leave us decent people alone.SACRIFICE YOURSELFVES TO SATAN and see him LAUGH AT YOU for being so S-T-U-P-I-D.No other place in the kingdom does this take place,animals may eat  each other and even a human now and then but it's NOT  out of hate,it's simply cuz they're hungry,ha,ha,ha,ha,ha!!!!! most of you treat others like douche bags for no reason,it's prbaly cuz you hated yourself for so long,it's become second-nature to you.meaning you don't even recoginize it anymore.It's  really sad when good people leave a nice place like fuville cuz SOME OF THE WORST IS REALLY SOME OF THE WORST PEOPLE IN A-L-L LIFE,STOP IT,IT'S N-O-T COOL AT ALL.

                 As ususal,i love to thank THE MONTANALAND225 Family and friends for being soo supportive in times such as these.The LOVE YOU CONTINUE TO SHOW WARMS MY HEART CONTINUALLY,I LOVE YOU!!!!!

                     "ALWAYS IN PEACE AND LOVE,.....

"Waiting,

Waiting for what?

Waiting for the end the war in my soul,

and in this life.wondering if my soul is really the shadow.

Wondering if the darkness is forever for me? Love is the light,the CREATOR of ALL things,The MAN in Me.

Yet,there is no love for me,or for that matter,Love for anyone.

i walk in the shadows,hoping for a light,a glimmer of something no one knows,but what everyone needs,Love.

The shadows offer nothing but restlessness,pain and more darkness.

i cry in the darkness,in the midst of the shadows.it's like crying in the deep of the forest.where no one hears.

My heart is broken by the things broken in life;the bullets,bombs and guns have seemingly destroyed some of me,but the little that's humane,wants healing for a dying sad world.where everyone says they know and practice love,but where is it to be seen?i see the love for those we like,but none for those like me that would love to have it.

My tears,though awful,show me i am human and in need of true love just like everyone else.

And at the same time,shows me how truly alone i am.THERE IS NOTHING WORSE IN LIFE THAN BEING LEFT ALONE.

Cuz you're left with the shadows,and the shadows don't care.

I'VE TRIED TO MEET E-V-E-R-Y-O-N--E'S NEED BUT AS I'VE JUST BEEN SHOWN,IT MEANS NOTHING TO SOME OF YOU. YOU GET ANGRY WITH ME AND LEAVE ME CLUELESS SO.WHEN YOU GET ON YOUR FUCKING HIGH-HORSE AND BLOCK ME WHEN I DON'T KNOW WHY,I'LL STAY BLOCKED IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON AROUND HERE?PEOPLE TELL YOU ONE THING,LIVE ONE WAY AND THEN BEFORE YOU KNOW IT YOU'RE BLOCKED WITH NO KNOWN REASON.I MEAN EVEN IF I'VE DONE SOMETHING WRONG,TELL ME WHAT I'VE DONE AND IF YOU STILL DECIDE TO GO YOUR OWN WAY I'LL UNDERSTAND.BUT TO HAVE YOUR OWN HIDDEN OR UNKNOWN AGENDA AND THEN SAY,"FUCK'EM"WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY IS UN-FUCKING-BELIEVEABLE!!!!!" NOW I'M LIKE WHATEVER CUZ WHEN PEOPLE TELL YOU ONE THING WHEN SOMETHING ELSE IS GOING ON IS FUCKIN' BULLSHIT ESPECIALLY WHEN I'VE BEEN STRAIGHT WITH E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E HERE DEVELOPING STRONG,SINCERE EMOTIONS FOR YOU AND WITHOUT WARNING,"BAM,YOU'RE PISSED AND I'M IGNORED AND BLOCKED!!!!!"NO QUESTIONS ON WHATEVER THE SUBJECT IS OR ANYTHING,SOME OF YOU ARE A"FUCKIN' TRIP"YOU TALK ABOUT THIS OR THAT AND NOT WHAT'S REALLY GOING ON AND DEVELOP AN ATITTUDE ON SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING AND DELETE OR BLOCK THEM WITH THE"WHATEVER"SHIT WITH IT."WELL,FROM THIS DAY FORWARD,I'LL JUST ASSUME YOU WERE N-E-V-E-R MY TRUE BROTHER OR SISTER AND"TRUE FRIEND"CUZ THEY D-O-N-'T DO SHIT LIKE THAT CUZ THEY R-E-S-P-E-C-T THE PERSON THEY'RE DEALIN'WITH A-N-Y-W-A-Y."WHAT THE HELL IS A"TRUE FRIEND"ANYWAY HERE?"FROM WHAT I'VE ENCOUNTERED IT'S A-L-L B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T,NO ONE WANTS TO GO THROUGH ANYTHING TO GET TO WHAT'S REAL ANYMORE,JUST CANCEL OR DELETE THEM."CUZ THIS IS HOW I FEEL WITHOUT THE OTHER PERSON CLUELESS,THAT'S JUSTICE OR RIGHTEOUS?,H-E-L-L NO IT AIN'T,THAT'S SELFISH AND SELF-SERVING!!!!!"YOU SPEND TIME WITH A PERSON AND T-H-I-N-K- YOU'RE GETTING TO KNOW THEM,BUT NOOOOO,YOU DON'T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE OF WHO THEY R-E-A-L-L-Y ARE AND WHAT THEY REALLY BELIEVE."NOW I JUST WILL LOOK AT THEM AS N-O-T-H-I-N-G CUZ THAT'S T-R-U-L-Y WHAT THEY HAVE BEEN WITH SOME SHIT LIKE THIS,N-O-T-H-I-N-G!!!!!"MY JOY IS FINDING BROTHRES AND SISTERS IN CHRIST AND BRINGING THE LOST BACK HOME,SO IF YOU HAVE ANOTHER AGENDA AND WISH FOR SOMETHING THAT'S N-O-T TRUE AND REAL,"KEEP ON WALKING AND DON'T WASTE MY AND YOUR TIME CUZ THIS W-I-L-L B-E THA'END OF IT."IT'S SO APPARENT THAT"BEING REAL"MEANS NOTHING TO YOU.SO I'VE GOT IT NOW JACK AND WILL BE REAYD FOR IT FROM NOW ON OUT."WHEN I SEE IT,YOU'RE G-O-N-E AND PERMENENTLY TOO,JUST LIKE YOU GIVE IT,THAT'S HOW YOU'LL GET IT!!!!!"SO,IF YOU'RE ROLLING LIKE THAT NOW WITH ME,"GET TO FUCKIN' STEPPIN' RIGHT NOW CUZ I DON'T NEED ANYMORE WHO AIN'T REALLY R-E-A-L WITH ME ANYWAY!!!!!"

                     "SO LASTLY"AVOIDING DRAMA WITH A SECRET AGENDA IS B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T TOO!"FU-THIS,FU-THAT,MAN SOME OF YA'LL ARE TRULY A TRIP TO NOWHERE."FUCK ME?,WELL FUCK YOU TOO CUZ YOU AIN'T REAL TO ANYONE ANYWAY CUZ BEING REAL WITH SOMBODY MEANS YOU"AT LEAST LIKE AND RESPECT THEM."SO TO FOLKS LIKE YOU,YOUR NEW FOUND ANGER MEANS NOTHING TO ME,NOT ANYMORE."

                     TO MY"TRUE"MONTANALAND225 FAMILY AND FRIENDS,I TRULY LOVE AND RESPECT YOU A-L-L."WITH YOU ALL I'M AS REAL REAL AS I CAN BE AND HOPE YOU'RE DOING THE SAME."I'M REAL CUZ I REALLY CARE ABOUT E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E OF YOU FROM THE FIRST CELL OF MY EXISTANCE."I DEAL WITH ENOUGH"FAKES"IN MY REAL LIFE,I DON'T NEED OR WANT IT HERE TOO,SO IF THIS IS YOU,STEP NOW AND I SO MEAN E-V-E-R-Y WORD OF THIS."SO IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT,JUST TRY ME AND SEE FOR YOUR-FUCKIN'-SELF!!!!!"

                            "ALWAYS IN PEACE AND LOVE,...."