To start... in this world there are so many things that anger and sadden me. So many many things. I keep having a dream... where I am standing overlooking hundreds of miles of the most breathtaking and beautiful nature your eyes could ever fall upon. The scene is so powerful I am brought to my knees... weep. For a while I wondered why in the midst of the most powerful thing I could imagine... I would weep. The more I thought about it, the more I came to understand. It is because if just about anyone else were put in that place they would simply overlook it, take it for granted. I was weeping because I knew... that other people would never feel the power of what they were seeing. I was sad for them, I was terrified that this beautiful thing.. nature will soon be gone, simply because no one else can understand it, feel it, be connected to it. As a pagan I personally feel a powerful connection to the earth. Something that would simply be meaningless to so many people...would be one of the most powerful things I could imagine. I used to be a christian...I used to think about how wonderful it would be to live in heaven for eternity. But now... I am starting to think that I would prefer to return to the earth. To return to the flow of life. I can not understand the way christians think.. The "laws" they go by.. are simply insane to me. Another thing that has been on my mind is color, race. So many people dislike people because of race or color.. I do not understand how. To me, as a pagan, all things are part of a larger whole. I am connected to the earth, all people are. In this sense.. color, race, ethnicity... it is insignificant. To dislike someone because of their color only.. is petty, and foolish. Everyone is part of the same thing I am part of... These are two huge things that bother me a lot. The way people live now days... is not good enough. Simple as that. So many people have insane, ignorant hang ups. Macho complex, thinking you're better then everyone else... I can't understand so many things that people do and think. It is beyond me, just as I guess it is beyond them to think in a wider view of things.
