kitten's blog: "Why"

If tomorrow never comes You will never ever see me If tomorrow never comes You will never hear my voice If tomorrow never comes You will miss me for a thousand years If tomorrow never comes You will never change my mind that you’re awesome If tomorrow never comes You will never say anything to me anymore If tomorrow never comes You will never say that you love me And If tomorrow never comes I will never know how much you love me

When your dreams have been shattered And all hope is lost When your pockets are empty Aspirations exhaust When prayers go unanswered Like an unspoken word When you’re screaming for help And your voice is unheard When your morning eyes open And your vision is dim When all luck is lost Your chances are slim When you search for the truth And find nothing but lies When you constantly fail And it becomes no surprise When you’re facing the mirror And see no reflection When you can’t even stand looking In your own direction When joy can’t be felt And you fake your own smile When your laughter is forced And it takes quite a while When your friends become few And you’re living in shame When another day passes And your life stays the same When you cry everyday And wipe your own tears When the hills you once conquered Become your worst fears Tortured by misery Frustration and sorrow Anger today And depression tomorrow

I felt so alone, But then I found you, Even though we don't talk on the phone, I never had to say a word,you just knew, In you I have found a friend, One that understands from his past, My love to you I send, I know what we have will last, I hear your pain inside, I tell you all mine, To you I have cried, You never complain when I whine, You understand more than most, You have been through some of the same, Wishing you were close, You never make me feel shame, Thank you for coming into my life, I know you have felt the hurt, pain and even self harming, Our past has stabbed us like a knife, But we still smile and try to be charming, My friend when you are down, I am here with open arms and an ear, I don't like seeing that frown, I so wish you were near, I know you are there when I am blue, You have wonderful words for me and such a big heart, You will never have a clue, From your friendship I will never depart. I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND

Your lips speak soft sweetness, Your touch a cool caress, I am lost in your magic, My heart beats within your chest, I think of you each morning, And dream of you each night, I think of your arms being around me, And cannot express my delight, Never have I fallen, But I am quickly on my way, You hold a heart in your hands, That has never before been given away.

This is for all that has almost lost a loved one, For all the tears that I have cried. For all the times I thought the pain was to bad to go on, For all the times I begged God too let me die. For all the times I begged God to save my moms life, For all the times I thought i wouldn't have her by my side. But God listened to me i have her by my side, I love you more then ever, To my mother I love you now and forever. This is for has almost fallen, I seen you get sicker and sicker, I seen you fight for your life, When you looked into my eyes, I seen there was fear you tried to hide, You tried too be strong, You tried to fight death, For your kids and your wife, You won this time but what about next, You fight this sickness every day, What if you don't wake up one morning, What if your life fades away, How can I tell you I love you, And I want you too stay, You still have to walk with me when its my time too be married, You still have too show me how too be strong, So the world don't get the best of me, I need you here you are my father and I love you so much. This is for those who have fallen in god will, I never really got to tell you I love you I was only nine, I never got to show you how much I care, I should of came and seen you more but she wouldn't let me, I think about you every day, I think about how things would be if you was still here, If she would be like she is now and see if i could see the girls One last time, If I could show them I love them and really do care, And if i had one day with you, It might not be enough, But i would try to show you, I love you and really do care, I ask you too help her forgive whatever or whoever made her so mad, But you can't I understand, I just ask you too watch over the girls, And let them know I love them and really do care, I come too you to give me strengh to make it though the bad times, And to help me understand where thing went wrong, And so you can tell me why she has to hurt me so bad, And to tell me why she don't care, You are not here so I can tell you, So i will tell everyone who reads this, I love you I miss you... you are my grandfather, And your still needed so much, But your not here but your still loved so much, No one will forget you may you R.I.P And now too you nick, You were like me brother, Why didn't you listen she told you not to do it, Mom always said don't drink and drive, Why did you do it I love you, I remember when you and eli would come over, You guys would drink we would sit around the table, And sing I remember the last song you and eli song for me, It was old red, Why didn't I ever say I love you, I guess I was scared but I love you, You are still like a brother to me, Thats all i have too say so i will end it Like this I love you may you R.I.P This is for the one who just don't care, Why do you have too be such a bitch, Its been three years not a word from you, I love the girls you can't keep them from me, So stop tryin ok, You might hate me I know the things you say about me, But I don't care you are family, Family should be there for each other but your never there, Is it because I listen to my mother, Because I am not like denelle and don't have a kid when i am 17-18 Is it because I am a better kid then some of the ones you rasied, If not tell me why you are never there, And why you never cared, And why hate me so much grandmothers shouldn't do this, So why do you do it tell me please, So i can understand where I messed up, What I did wrong, I didn't do anything so why do you have to be so wrong, Tell me so I can understand, Well I still love you because you are family, And if you don't forgive whatever made you mad, And let me in the girls life again, I will stop tryin, And then end with a fuck you have a nice life.