Why do I feel that he doesn't want to be seen in public with me. Am I really that ugly, or am I just being paraniod? He talked about how he couldnt wait for everyone to meet me and I have only met 2 of his friend since I have been here. He talked about the girls at the store meeting me and shit but yet none of them girls have met me or even seen me with him now that I think about it. Whenever he goes there I stay at home if I am with him we go to another store like Evans we dont go to Enmart unless I sit in the truck. He also talked about marrying me and now all of a sudden he doesnt believe in marriage.I mean I know he never thought about marriage before but he said to me I made him think about marriage a marriage to me. I dont know why this is happening or even why I am even writing about it so all can read I mean shit this makes me look like a hella big ass fool. Falling for lines I know that is what I did. I do love him and I have no question that he doesn love me I just dont know why he said some of that shit to me I would have been with him without all those lines. I just dont know why he is doing all this going back on all that he said.I mean I can understand if he just didnt feel that way to me but it hurts knowing that he would say any of that in the first place and not mean it at all. Its like being lied to in a way. And that brings in a trust issue. I hav ebig issues with trust anyway because of past relationships. I do trust him but yet he said so many things that he didnt mean and I dont know why? SO why would this happen to me?
