Through out the span of my life I have been blessed by God. Everytime I really needed something, some way some how, I was able to achieve my objectives. I don't understand how or why, but some how, things always have fallen into place for me. Usually when I would find myself in need for something like money to pay the rent or even buy food, there would always be a way for me to make the money. A way that wasn't there before, but now is. All I had to do was take advatage of the oportunity and do it!
I'm at that point once again in my life where things were looking pretty grim. Out of work, no money, living with my brother, and what I thought was a failing relationship. Last Monday, not only did I except an offer for a good paying job, but I found that the woman of my dreams was still the woman of my dreams. Even after I cast her aside and sought the company of another, she takes me back into her life like I was never gone and even tried to take the blame for me running off. I didn't allow her to do that, but I was deeply touch by the fact that she could relate and understand what it was that I was feeling and showed me what it means to love someone unconditonally. I find it over-welming to find such a person in the times that which we now live. I knew what I was giving up, I knew who I was giving up, I just didn't know that we couldn't give up on eash other. I know in my heart now that no matter what, I will live out the rest of my days loving and caring for this woman. I consider myself very lucky to have found her, for she is my soul-mate. If only I'd listened to my heart instead of my head, I'd never done what I did. I betraied her trust, friendship and love and she still has the ability to see through the bullshit I created in my mind to over-look my errors and help me to understand why I did what I did and help me see who we, together, really are...One! But, my point here is this...why am I so damn lucky? What have I ever done that was so great to ever meet such an exstordinary woman? Why am I so lucky? People spend years searching for their soul-mates only to give up and settle for the next best thing...some they they both can tollorate. But as for myself, I found the one that the good Lord had intended me to be with and I kicked her to the curb only for her to let me do it to learn it for myself what she was to me and I to her.
This really makes me sit back and think, what can I do to give back for all those times when I was in need and some how it was satisfied by what ever means...what can I do to give back. I guess now that has become my new need...the need to give. How cool would it be if we all had such a need to fulfill. This is a crazy world in which we live and I give thanks to God for every day that I get to be alive and enjoy all there is to enjoy. And for my first act of giving I'd like give to my future wife my unconditional love. Thank you sweatheart for shinning your light along the dark path that I choose to walk alone so that I could find my way back to you, thank you! I love you!!!
