This is really meant just to get the thoughts out of my head. I have been up so long that I cant think and blogging is sometimes a release of what you are thinking but just cannot or do not say.
Someone very dear to me had a heart attack last night....this is someone that I have spent 15 years of my life with and until now had very little contact....sad but true. Why does it take something like this to happen before you wake up and realize the things in life you have/had are taken for granted. Why is it so hard for us just to stop and see how fortunate we really are and all the things we have to be thankful for. Why do we give up so easily when things seem hard? Why are we having a pity party for ourselves over such little trival things that really mean nothing in the long run. And most importantly why does it take something so tragic to make us wake up and see that we are never given a second. We are all living on borrowed time so why not live life to the fullest instead of procrastinating. I am not even going back to read this. I have no idea if it makes any sense as I have not slept. All I do know is that for today I have lots of questions and very few answers. As for right this minute, I vow to try to live like there is no tomorrow and TRY to start taking each blessing in life I am given with gratitude and thankfulness.