I have come to always ask myself why a fireman like myself can save everyone but when it comes to your own people ,why can't we save our own ... I understand that it is a doctor's job... but it makes you feel so left out because there is nothing you can do to save your own family member.. And it hurts so bad inside!!:((
My dads heart stopped 5-6 times to day and we got him back .... thank god but the feeling of not being able to do anything fucking suck because inside is like saying come on you can do this your a strong man.. but the other half just says I no your weak and tired of the hospitals .... It is like a war inside of me right now wondering what is going to happen to my dad now ....
